lost and found

Finally I got some update…
Seems I m almost get into the relationship…

I start not to mention about my ex much
I start not to visit his facebook already
I didn’t think what he was doing during weekend
I start to think about someone already
I start to know more about him .
The dark cloud still overhead me, but the cloud is getting thinner

I don’t want to calculate and test how much he cares , how much he likes me
I just wanna to give all I can ….
It was my principle. But somehow it was lost due to the hurts

I need to have faith and trust. J
God pls give me strength and guide me…

halloween bash *

i think its should be my best halloween party ever
dont need to care anything, just have fun with my frds..

i love all of them.

seems i m having a new life now :)

something memorable from my little sketch book

bone marrow.

grandma stayed in the hospital for few days
and yesterday, doctor need to extract her bone marrow for testing...

bone marrow....
how painful it will be esp. for a 94-years-old lady

pray for her...

recap*

To my friends,

謝謝你們的關心, 這段時間打擾到你們了

今天聽了小故事, 願分享
一個男孩背著沙鍋, 沒有其他行裝穿州過省
有一天繫在沙鍋的繩子斷了, 整個沙鍋跌在地上, 沙鍋破了
那男孩竟頭也不回就一直向前行, 旁人看了就問 ‘ 為什麼你不看看那沙鍋怎樣 ?’
他回答 ‘沙鍋破也破了, 補也補不了, 乾脆不用再回頭了 ’


一段關係有開始也需有一個明確的終結
如果要用時間來終結, 或者拖拖拉拉 吞吞吐吐 , 又或者再一路逃避
那倒不如我自己來作一個明確的了斷


就如那男孩那樣說‘沙鍋破也破了, 補也補不了, 乾脆不用再回頭了 ’



我單身了
也成長了

Love & kiss,
Sha

understand that finally

只一格　經典的偶遇已　不再
盡量框住目前　大概

留住溫度　速度　溫柔和憤怒
凝住今日　怎樣好
捉緊生命濃度　坦白流露　感情和態度
停下時光　靜止衰老

其實人生　並非虛耗
何來塵埃飛舞

imu

energy

bday present announcement ( in advance )

thought he will not visit here

my bday present *

品嘗食物*

IMU 04

炭B 你好.
明天你就回來. 希望你會開你的mailbox看到這些emails呢.

我從台北回來都有兩天了
本想一下機回家做寫EMAIL給你但真是太累
今次的旅行行程實在太緊密, 而我也發生了一件很exciting的事呢, 不過這些要配合照片, 遲一點給你看 ..)
我們也到了Room18 呀,裝修了, 再漂亮一點. 不過舞池小了, 我們五個人就是站在上面.
在那兒,我在想我們的第一次在room18的時侯 (還記得kirk玩到丟了眼鏡嗎? 嘻嘻……).
你應該感謝吧,我到了club也在想你呢..:p我很乖呀, 一位bartender想認識我也沒有理會太多 ( 好的就是我們有free drinks ).

你的手信我已經叫aunt幫我轉給你 J
明天你回來, 會像一個黑人嗎? :p

IMU 03

你好嗎？ 己經有十天沒有聯絡了, 這是第一次吧

原來發現沒有聯絡過的和平時的很不一樣
感覺很不實在, 時間比你去hangzhou的時間慢得多


有時會想你會不會不記掛我了，你會不會認識了其他可愛的人呢

silly thoughts 有時真的太多

明天一早就會到機場了 ,出發到台北 :)
會玩 會吃 會買
哈哈


想念你

DAY 1

DAY ONE

10:35AM HKG departure ( sha & windy )
12:00PM LANDED
1:00PM ARRIVED HOTEL AND EARLY CHECK IN.
3:00PM FAYE & ANGUS ARRIVED
4:00PM GO TO 五分埔 TOGETHER

8:30PM BACK TO HOTEL
9:00PM GO TO NIGHT MARKET

0:00 STAY BACK HOTEL AND REST. ( OR DEPENDS ON HOW TIRED WE WILL BE )


DAY TWO

10:00AM BREAKFAST
10:30AM WALK AT NEARBY AREA

12:30PM 台北火車站 →瑞芳 TRAIN



6:30PM LEAVE 十分
7:30PM ARRIVE HOTEL
9:00PM MA LAT HOT POT

11:30PM CLUB ( ROOM 18 OR BARCODE, WHEREVER )


3:00AM REST





DAY THREE

10:00AM BREAKFAST
10:30AM 光南大百貨
誠品
SPORTWEAR SHOP
...


7:10PM SHA & WINDY FLT BACK TO HK

CU TAIPEI

IMU 02

炭B你好：）
不知道你又在做什麼呢？ 可能你在一個不知名的山頭露營中. 對著營火唱著歌 :p
今天天氣很好所以到了淺水灣晒太陽
太陽真是太猛，晒了大概兩小時我就變燒豬了，現在又黑又紅又痛
我在想我晒了兩小時己是這樣，那你的十五天會變變成怎樣呢？

想念你

p.s.今天細細也要去整指甲呢。有一隻指甲因為太長之後反插入toe入面，整個toe也腫了，所以帶他整指甲 （不過平宜得多 hkd30 :p), 這張照片是他在袋子裡。他像不像頭lup著絲襪那些賊人呢？嘻嘻

IMU 01

你好嗎 ?
不知道你在做什麼呢？ 凌晨一點了，你應該睡了吧
今天晚上電視又有播關於 michael jackson 的歌
聽到thriller, 想起你電話的鈴聲
想起你

Luv & Kisses,
sha*

mo-la-la-fifteen-days-outward-bound-trip

today is the 1st day of his mo-la-la-fifteen-days-outward-bound-trip.
mm...
today i feel abit unstable, maybe i know starting from today till 22nd, we will not have any connection, and even i dun know where he will be... :(

anyway, its a good trip for him so i should be happy for him as well lor
see u , ar b


p.s. however i feel abit upset that he didnt call before the trip. just a sms....

changes

actually i do wanna write down sth today , so i m trying to fasten my pace to type before i go to sleep.

theres 2 incidents

* last night we were lying on the bed and watching the TV programme which talked about some lovely pets.

it shows a 24-years-old cat which is very old, she nearly blind and move very slowly. Leon said ' she seems miserable ' of cuz, i do understand how harsh the cat will be, at the first moment, i also think the cat looks pity.

but after few minutes, my thoughts change.

my thoughts swing like - the cat is blessed since she can stay with her master for 24years, she can play with her master's son and daughter too. Staying with the master is the happiest thing in every pet's life. So its not a torture. its a kind of blessing.. 

'u are right ' leon replied

* today i had chatted with jackal, he feel a bit upset about getting older. He think time fly too fast so he still cant fully utilized his life. however,i do have a different feeling towards aging.

aging is not the meaning of the-end, its just a stage and it also let old people to enjoy and experienced. we can go to play Tai Chi , we can do something which we havent do during youth time.... its not a wasting as long as you dun think it a kind of waste. We still can do something do as long as you are willing to try

so why not just enjoy and experience every stages in our life ?

jackal replied ' i also want to be this optimistic . u are such an optimistic person '

huh ?! i had never heard about that before. OPTIMISTIC seems not a good description of me.

however after these 2 incidents ,i know my thoughts really different from before ..

what changes me ? 

dun know.....but i do like it :)

his home sweet home

Finally, bf is back.
I didn’t have any exciting feeling in the sat. morning. Received his msg about his flight delay… so i just do my my stuff slowly…
His plane landed at 8pm finally and I arrived airport at 8:15pm…
So he showed up when I had been waiting for 15mins, my face looked calm however my heartbeat was fast.

He hugged me and then we went to his place for dinner.
The feeling just like the old days, normal and sweet… and it seems we didn’t apart for long.
Maybe its call ‘stability’

:)

踢一腳走一步

有些人總要被踢一腳先懂得走多一步

現在明白對著這些人
我還要更慢，還要冷靜

因為踢他一步，他走多一步
但要他走多兩步？！他總不會自動自覺。


寧願留下這腳骨力，做瑜珈好過

wondering about my old self.

friday, just having a holiday break yesterday , so actually today's holiday mood keep going on and on...........

actually nothing special in these few days.
but really , communicate with rikc is comfortable i have to say, he got loads of stuff wanna share wif you, but of cuz, love vanished for long, so anyway its good to have a frd like him.

Ms.Tiff reminded me about b's first trip to mumbai.
and then i browse the old blog, realize sth :
* i was extremely care about his text or email ....
*do lots of things before he leave ( that boarding pass reli reli nice, i m stunned still ' how can i make it ? ' )....
* cant stop thinking ' why he did that ? ' ' why he didnt that ? ' ...

after 2 years.
i just wondering my old self...........

i m really getting mature...

send 42 to u

Dear U,

24th May, 2009

Happy 42th months anniversary, it means 3 year and exactly an a half.
thought you forgot about it , but nevermind :)


suddenly i can smell the passion fruit fragrance, can see your happy face when you done the treasure hunt inside hotel, can hear you sing the-sing-along-song to me, can touch your tummy when i m lying on ur shoulder..........................


Wish you happy all the time.



Luv & Kisses,
sha*
sharon.seeyan@gmail.com

i lost my wallet ?!

8:50am - i m on the bus stop , waiting for the bus to work, i m fishing my wallet from my bag but i can find nothing, so i went back to my place.
however i cant find my red wallet. ' i looked around my table, the floor and the sitting room but nothing....
i m terribly worried...

i went back to my mom's house and ask for $500 and head back to office by taxi.
actually i was worried the wallet was dropped inside the taxi last night after dinner. so i m trying to call the lost & found , and also i do suspend all my credit cards, ATM cards....

the thing what i was thinking is - sigh. that was my favourite wallet. what should i get for my next one ???????


when i arrive office, i called my mom and ask her to fish my home again
after 15mins, they found it..... inside one of my grandma's bag.
the bag is natually black, she seldom use it. when my mom and dad open it and saw my wallet , they found theres no any money there.
but my mom knows i must got some money there so they search again.
and finally she hide the money in other bag with pin tucks in the opening.....................-_-"


' oh , thats why she was very happy and didnt ask for money this morning during breakfast , cuz she got the money from 'other' sources ' dad teased.


anyway, my wallet's here
and i wanna tell u all is, i m not that big head shrimp ......

1st day *

this is the first day of his biz trip.
no any bad feeling except when we depart, dun worry..its just a bit sad feeling ...
and before i didnt prepare anything for his trip, no any emails or sth except 2 packs of ching eat ho

of cuz i will do what i did before: dun ask him to contact me regularly, dun call / sms him proactively .
i do understand theres no any good result if i check too much, push him too hard....


later on, hving a great yoga class & sun tanning at repulse bay. arms and legs tanned after only spent 2 hours on the beach.....
its really a wonderful afternoon :)





and of cuz
its reli a good timing.....:)

R.I.P. my iphone

五月十一日. 星期五早上...

因為我的不小心掉進水中, 經過兩天的搶救也終告不治..

修理師傅開了機殼指著那些入水的痕跡...我也不清楚這次上次在LA時入可樂的還是今次廁所水的..
那些收機的,對我說 '樣子還不錯, 只可惜...'

最後我的iphone賣了, 只得六百大元 ( 算是很不錯了 )


往往就是這樣,
當它還在時, 我還大大聲對朋友說我要脫離iphone family..
現在, 我真是很不捨 (但我認為再花數千元買同一款機實在太無聊 )

不過可能就是時晨已到.
aunt提醒我上一次在LA入水也是她生日前的一天, 那次是僥倖地生還
今次就是她生日的後一天......
世事就是這麼的巧合

aunt說 ' 你賺左架啦 ! '

是的
賺了一年多兩天

rest in peace

lovely bloodly monday

yeah, i m back.

my trip is not bad. at least not very rush with lovely weather in London.
and i just wanna tell a good news is - I had implied to my chief about my annual leave at mid-june for a whole week and its seems okay..LOL....
but of cuz everything will be confirmed around mid may. so reli need to save the money for it.

mood is not very very good.
maybe company is not too stable
maybe customer feedback in UK is not good as we expected
maybe ar b need to leave HK again for 3 weeks.. mm..
or maybe i need to attend one more meeting this afternoon again..


mm..
looking forward to weekend again.
dun know why, its only bloodly monday..sigh...

Easter Time *

today is apr12 . time flies.. 1 month again, hvnt updated it for a month.sigh....
Recently really dun have much to update. life as usual. my main focuz on my work, loan repayment & yoga time
meanwhile the recent topic between bf and me sud be our upcoming Canada trip. Trace from my old blog. we had mentioned about this around 2 years ago.
Time flies and june is coming soon, and he start talking about it during this month, and of cuz the main concern is money and job *

but as frd said, this trip is meaningful for us.
so for the holidays, lets talk with my chief designer during the upcoming London trip...
and about money, mm... the thing i can do is dun spend any lor...

will update u guys after my biz trip....

update again ! horray

life is soooo full after i had joinned yoga, it is the 2nd months and its pretty cool, i can really attend 2 classes per week and 2 hours per day.... not bad, huh ?

life is somehow you may say its getting more and more routine after i quit my CX job, however, if u really want to make a change, then u can.

i believe everywhere got its different opportunity.

depends on what you think and what you choose finally

( actually i learn it from the book i read in recent- veronica want to die )

just like

u know, i didnt have much varieties of my lunch...

its not easy to get rid of sandwich cuz normally i dun take any rice for my lunch...

so within those limitation, i try sth new, egg salad with chicken strips sandwich..hoho...i luv u...hehe

p.s. i almost quit my bad habit already, hoho....maybe those photos really helps, thanks facebook :D

wats tat

The curious case of Benjamin Button

I watched The curious case of Benjamin Button finally.
I know some of its background before, but its really out of expectation since it really drive me to think more about life, death and love.

Everything seems have its own track.
If you choose another way, it may change the whole stuff, however the ending will be the same.
You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.
And the important thing is you have to enjoy the process :)

I love this movie soo much
Is there any novel of it ?

cheer chan concert

kiss, lips or teeth ?

mature

Ar B went HangZhou for two and a half week again. Today is the first day.
However the mood is different from before.
I didn’t feel panic or worried or keep thinking the activities I will have to do during his leave

I didn’t ask for any Bou Dou text since as frds said everything can be fake. he will text you when he miss you. If you push him to archieve your wish, he can archieve in the short run, but finally he will repell and leave finally

so why dun just let him do what he want
Everything under his willingness is the best way
And of cuz , i do understand ' rubber band theory :) so i also have more confident on myself and him.

I m getting mature :D

* or maybe the MAIN reason of good mood is I had arranged my activities already la ,hahaha :D

valentine* day

valentine's day. seems a normal day with present.
but of cuz he had booked the table for dinner and i also try to make something special for him

I feel comfortable and loved.

i start to understand the true meaning of ' everyday is valentine's day '

love love love

xx

yoga life, wifi life, work life, wat a busy life :)

its time to update my life .
and now i can lying on my bed and typing my blog, it really cool. it seems really good to get one new laptop for leisure :)

life becoming more stable, staying insie the office at least for almost 10hours. however, i think i m being productive again.
and now i can arrange my time much easier after grounded. so i just joinned a yoga class, 2 days a week, i can stress out and do some sports meanwhile i can meet up my buddies at the same time. LOL


work life is busy, but its perfect to me cuz it busied till 6:20pm ONLY. colleagues are good and friendly, salary is rather good with better prospect. so now i hope i can work here for longer time. i can feel i can develop my career here


love life is better after i grounded as well, i do enjoy every weekend to spend time with him, but i will not feel upset or eneasy when he cant stay with me and i still can enjoy myself or with buddies. Its a good thing which i learned thru my crew life :)


i love my busy life, with family, lover, buddies and some leisure activities :)))))
i got the balance now, hhhhooooooorrrraaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy



p.s. job is not easy, however i will have a chance to london as business trip on april again :) wakaka, topshop & primark, i m coming for u

Yuen Siu Ji Fa lok :)

house warming present

this is the present for Cheung's family .
Each letters need to be scratched on the surface
it fix me for a whole night ......

but its worthy when it looks good , right ? :)

funny weekend.

Havent got this kind of activities during weekend for long :)

having a great dinner at peninsula with my colleagues, its a really good experience, we all having loads of dessert , especially those home-made ice-cream, yummy...
after that, i went to have a good drink with Faye and her funny buddies till quite late, its a good bar, nice environment.. and of cuz i just drank some..

my sat. is good as well, shopping with windy , then dinner and then 2 of us go to drink with Isabel and Faye AGAIN. Jeff's place look superb after renovation, I love 70s feeling with nice songs.
we talked a lot and a lot, sharing infomation and tackle the problem we faced .

I love my buddies xxxxx
I love girls talk, keep on going :)
and wish you gals happy forever


p.s. 3ppl said i look like Lam Hei Lui in a day. it seems nice :)

旅人生活

2008年，對我來說是不一樣的一年
因為好勝，一句 ' 做空姐有什麼難度 ? '
嘗試這一份工作

我學了不少新知識
由first aid到 chardonney 同 savignon blanc的分別，很多東西很得意，所以我蠻喜歡training的時間

這一年到了很多地方，我相信我到最多次的地方應該是巴林bahrain .



to be continued

new concept bling

had a great dinner and drink last night with buddies.
I haven't met her a long time ago, probably a whole year, she definitely changed, seems getting much mature.
after that, I have a drink with that 2 gentlemen in East-end
really can't expected we can talked that long ....

they give me a new concept :)
i m just waiting for the good timing

thankss

lookback 2008

its a bit late to have a review of year 2008, anyways....

2008 , the year of game . mm definitely i didn't do any meaningful stuff at all.
my travel life start from Jan10, starting from Osaka, i had been almost all ports, visit all the places, took so many pics, bought so many things, and slept a lot.
meanwhile its happy year for Ma's family, gloria get married and start her new life with craig. Family seems bonded much tighter after her marriage. its definitely a good thing


jun2008, sud be the month of unhappiness
everything exploded after some stupid arguments. everything lost control and definitely its was a hard time to me. i had admitted i did something wrong ,I had learned that I sudn't say something easily without thinking. meanwhile I do understand I should keep my promise.
Meanwhile I should be forgive easily if its just a tiny matter.
its a good thing actually cuz I get to know more about him and myself.
and I also understand how much faith I 've got.

I would like to thank you for all good friends's opinion and comfort during that moment: Jean, Dennis, Faye, Isabel, Lilian, Melolo, zoe, maggie...

meanwhile, i also being bothered by Fall 2008.
job hunting is difficult after the Lehman Bros bankrupted. over 30 cover letters had been sent but no one reply. Luckily helps from friend so I can get back a 5-days-design-job again.

everything start going back on track since Dec.
mood is better, life seems stable again...
so keep going and look ahead :)


p.s. i hope i can write sth about crew life in this few days.