probation period

Sept 27 - Dec 27
* probation period over. *salary increase. But it is not that surprise * Clearer Prospect

but feel a lot happier when my boss told will hire the assistant for me if my burden getting heavier.
and
" i hate OT too, so i dun want my staff can leave at 6 or 7 in maximum. that is life"
"i will keep adding your salary if ur performance can be maintained or even better "
Horray, it is the first time to hear that, thru a boss's mouth, in real

i LOVE my job
(p.s. no one concern my serious late problem ....lucky me)

hippies?!

5 little ladies gathering again , luv that most
this time our main topic is - Financial Status.

i didn't realise my spending habit before until my first tax's bill had been revealed....sigh...no allowance....
( why all people tell me the first tax payment should be jus few hundreds , huh ?)
so this month, i will suffer from Student loan + Tax in the same time.

they told me that ppl with just 10k monthly salary still save up some money in the bank.
how about sha that bloody big-spender ? nothing left even the salary much more than 10k

4 ladies keep saying my spending pattern is abnormal......
my concept is - if i need to buy something new, it is the best one (for me at least) . if it s not, i would like to stick into this old position.
janjan told me that is the Hippie's thoughts .... umm...

ALL dinner at proper restaurants, no cha chang teng * clothes * electronics still * drinks * TAXI to work * Mobile bill - HKD1000 /mth.

alright, i will control now....... (at least no more taxi to work and mobile fee loads )

I NEED TO SAVE UP THE MONEY for March & April

rush* christmas week

this christmas time flies silently. For me, it is just a holiday, a time to play and spend time with my friends and lover.
i had searched some christmas carols on the net yesterday nite.... realised that I almost forget this is the time to celebrate the birth of jesus...........

mark sth down ( coz it s soo busy starting from 21/12...):
*21/12 (Thu) : walk till die.....
*22/12 (fri): family dinner.. went to drinking party by Kenny a very generous invitaion. didnt drank anything, just keep chatting with collette that wise pretty..she is cute but strong. congrat.
*23/12 (sat): working-day + less-spending day + gift day....walkwalkwalk,...nite @ east-end, kenny and windy both suggest to go massage in sudden...sigh,i forget my card had been kept at bf’s place...-_-”
*24/12 (sun): go to china and met windy and kenny.... we both guess it right, they really got massage before we reached. -_-” yum chai...very yummy....and then went massage with bf....kinda relaxing, we both fell asleep, and then back HK asap and having xmas dinner ( thx u hon had reserve the place) , i really like that huge choco tower.....so full......and then LFK, Sing K till 3....silent night, holy night~ a noisy and not that holy.......-_-
*25/12 (mon): chritmas day. lunch with Bf’s family..those desserts really good. exchange xmas present~ the lovers rings......see the uncle’s smile...tense was eased....peace . gave some opinion to some laptop, movie, dinner ...............HIGHLY CONCENTRATED....EXHAUSTED........
*26/12 ( tue) : work @ home, afternoon tea with muelmuel, pick bf up @ central. dinner, exchange HKD2.OO, hehe

COMPARED WITH LAST YEAR - 2005 XMAS:
got drunk for 2 whole nights......this xmas is totally different....didnt play crazy, but i m tired already, maybe we just keep rushing here rushing there.....
and i feel stunned is, when told me about last year’s situation. i feel moved coz 25th Dec 2005 was sunday and we had met becoz of my sadness. 2006-12-26, i just know u had fight sth for me.
Hardly believe that i can spend the holiday with his family, in fact, i quite enjoy it since i still feel sweet even we are not in 2ppl world...


SECRET READINGS -
in fact, i really luv the ring -
each rings i received got a certain meaning, 4rings in my life till now: 1 from mom, 2 from ex-bf , 1 from ex bf’s mom
BUT this is the first time to wear one of a pair. feeling sweet when i saw him wearing that.
it made. peace in everything.
feeling a bit strange when i wear that on. maybe it is wrapping around our both 4th finger only. When we both wearing that on, there seems got an invisible silver cord are tighten those 2 rings up.
when he was grabbing my right hand with his left hand, 2 rings should be collided each other.

i m kissing the ring now, can he feel that too ?

memory box

found a very nice orange Hermes paper box.
"good to be my new memory box lei "i think

so, during the midnight...
i had transfer those crap from one smaller red box to that Hermes one.......

*letter *lots of rubber toy *small gift *theatre pass *card *letter *photos..........

my memory.....stored inside a box again...


box closed.

小心眼

那次事件後, 什麼都怕, 像驚弓之鳥
一個email我也要看五次以上才放心送出

就例如sms其中一個字也令我想得很多
這個字是不是有責備的意味呢? 我心想
但大家對我說那些是很普通的回覆呢.

我不知道怎樣可以痊癒
只知道這令我累

怪就怪自己就是這麼的小心眼
想少一點好嗎 baby?

16 & 17 Dec

2006-12-16 / Kart day*

drive Kart with Leon's bball teammate and teammate's frds. ( 35ppl in total) at Shengzhen. China.
we both had soo much fun... so exciting and breath-taking

had played cart for at least 5times before, but i do feel fear still, umm.......dun know why, maybe the route is much difficult, and it seems more professional.

But i do really think that is the most interesting one, the most exciting one, and the most 'brain-using' one cuz i reallly need to think how can i follow the track, fasten the speed , evade the crash......but i really feel embararessing when i "short-cut" (that is not my willing really ><)

He did pretty well in this kind of extreme sport, can get the champion soo easily. How about me? sucks, 11 of 16. what a humuliatin ranking.........
BUT i do really enjoy that. And the price is much reasonable than Macau one too.looking forward to next time 5d5d5d...hehhe


After that, we went Little sheep hotpot( with Pak Keung, Kurt, Leon and Maurice) the food is sooo good ( especially that lamb rib , yum yummm) ..

so happy


2006-12-17/ Brunch day*


@ Brunch club, Soho, Central
first time having brunch with hon.

*ikea and try those sofa ..select the future one..
*discuss which doggie should be our future companion , Pug ?! that naughtly boy...glad that he also like the little doggie will sleep on the same bed , hehe ^^...
*Play those 18holes golf flash game together.... i loss AGAIN....

A normal but sweet sunday.
kinda relaxing, luv that

p.s. wish ur sickness gone

cellphone bill...omg~

phoned my cellphone services provider this morning to check the previous bill $530..
when i confirm that bill amount, that representative said i should pay $14xx for 2 months...@_@

HKD14xx for 2 Months? WHAT THE HELL...
I m stunned since i still not read that newest bill yet. At the first beginning , i think there should be wrong.
since last time juz hkd530 included the roaming (during shanghai), but this time, no roaming at all BUT reach 887....

after checking, i had use 600 more mins this month, no roaming...tats means 2500mins i had used..gosh...
1900 mins plan , isnt a very big figure ? But I can't accept that definitely.........

so, from now on..i should -
1. Lock my cellphone
2. Divert those calls when i m office
3. No TAXI to work..............

Or getting a higher usage plan?
Or talk less ? ummmm..............

damn.

我愛巴黎 Paris Je T'aime

watch Movie 我愛巴黎 with Twinzen @ Cinematique~~~

this movie was the combination of 18 10mins short-film from different directors....all of them can show different faces of this city of arts, city of crime, city of love.

theres is some which i like...
*talk about the american girl who wanna be a actress fell in luv with a Blind french young man.
*talk about an foreigner who didnt know french and he met a very annoying couples at the metro
* talk about that man who need to take care of his wife who got cancer.
* that clown one......sooo funny ^^

most of them are fab. but both Twinzen and I hate that one which talk about a young chinese hairdresser...very moliu.
And finally i found that one is filmed by 杜可風..shit.. (thats why the background music from Faye wong la... )

after the movie. we went to having a dinner ( but i m super full really )
we had a nice talk, about career and love.......a nice chat indeed...
Thx, twinzen ( i will trying to minimize the frequency of " no-show-up" la)



p.s. i wanna go Paris again after the movie........

write sth down

2006-12-09 / sat.

hmm.. pick me up at TST, lol.

lunch, atternoon tea, agnes b......

we both keep playing windy's NDS. ho ho play....the sims 2 pet....so lovely

stomachache when i play snooker becoz of Kenny and Windy's joke...

went to Katie's wedding banquet, saw lots of ex-colleagues.. but the saddest things is - SHE is not here...sucks~

the wedding banquet, hmm....really usual except her wedding gown is really pretty ^^

they say out the promise and sign the marriage certificate during the banquet, a bit weird, but its touched
during the banquet, i got plenty ideas for next wedding banquet... hey babes, hire me as a 'part-time wedding planner' if you need a gorgeous one..hohohoho

after the banquet, i had join bf bball teammate Karaoke.

In fact, didnt wanna drank coz so many ppl are drunk...hoho...so, i need to take care of them....that nite. really messy, but quite funny...

during that nite, i saw soo many things..

i really appreciate my frd's gf can behave in a very generous way, i m not really sure i can do that

i m really appreciate he didnt drink any alcohol and he try to take care of frds...

and i m really stunned why she can still vomit till mon. aiya...poor her...... dun drink too much next time la, baby

2006-12-12 / tue

sooo happy this morning, since i can wake up as my planning, didnt lazy on the bed.

i didnt suffer from Traffic Congestion this morning juz becoz of 15 mins earlier , it is not difficult at all.

Maybe it s becoz i can sleep more earlier, i can easily wake up nei. and i didnt fell asleep during the bus, i m thinking about the taipei trip last year. As i remember, it is 14Dec-17Dec 2005. Time flies.......miss Taipei so much... but the weather is much cooler during last year.....

And the most important thing is i didnt need to rush, reach office at 8:50am

i love that, really love that.......... this hapiness truly derived from my tiny changes ............

ho hoi sum

i am soooo happy today....

happy about
*windy and he having lunch with me ( beefball and beef muscle...yummy, but so full nei)
*he had pick me up after work....
*he told me some planning initiatively
*ma c c email
*that rubbish had been pop-out from my O2... oh god, that pen can be fitted finally..horray...


i can pulling out the pen from my o2, text him goodnight by using this instead of my bloody shaking fingers...( it bothered me for 2 months already).....

ho hoi sum...ho ho ho hoi sum

2006-12-10

2006-12-10 / 4:30am
不高興得想哭
有時候，我很想你可以送我回家甚至可以抱著我睡
只想的不過如此...然而...

情感上我很想很想這樣，但理智上的我不想這樣
很無奈，很矛盾

早上四時三十分，開了房門
房裡面充斥著一種酸酸的味道，是孤獨的味道
酸得眼淚也不自控落下
難過的睡著


2006-12-10/ 1:30pm
那驚喜令我很高興
很高興很高興

見到你，儘管沒有做什麼特別，心情也好得多
雖然我仍然也想這樣，但是如果暫時還不行的話，你為我做其他的一切己能填補那些少少的壞
而且這只不過是短期的..

因為你，我會等待著
等待住近你多一點點...
等待你帶我到台灣拍那些很美的照片吧

沒有什麼其他原因， 就是你而己



p.s.真的謝謝你，只不然我今天的心情一定壞透了，謝謝

...

又是因為這個原因而發脾氣了
不是想要人去Tum我, 而是 “ I really HATE to be the last one to know ”
感覺真是不好受, 而且我已經製造不少機會給他

由今天晚上他還沒有告訴我和他家人吃飯 (這我不介意)
上星期對我說今星期五要和表哥吃飯, windy昨晚問他時他說出Fri.他不用和表哥吃飯, 但他沒有對我說過

現在是5:18pm

我不是等待張先生發落的
謝謝

發現我的忍耐能力愈來愈高

一公斤眼淚

*Sick for 2 days, those symptoms really like the eve of heavy sick ( it worsen after Karaoke EVERYTIME )
so rather home yesterday nite.

Watch 一公斤眼淚 alone, from 4th Episole to 10th Episole.
that drama, it really deserve its name, i cried lots.........
i will watch the ending tonite, cant wait

*that sweet sweet 1yr anniversary present reached HK in final.
really wanna see it in real size.........
need to reconsider the add-on...hoho


*all ppl just like the same,hate what u did.
like some frd said " oh, i m soo envy, u are designer, a dream job indeed "

but they didnt know that low-paid graphic designer- in front of that bloody 19' LCD at least 10hours per day, eyes were dry, shoulder and back hurts, keep refreshin herself thru books and magazines even after work and durin holidays.........

meanwhile, i really love those Luxurious Life. I love 1000ft sea-view apartment, I luv Ferrari , I luv Armani Dishes and Forks, I luv Galliano Couture ( wei, go to take a look FW06, gorgeous )

Baby, all wanna be a millionaires. And the saddest thing is I KNEW i can't be a millionaires if i work as the designer.
If that salary cant satified you, just leave. but i do believe it is impossible to reach the ultimate dream life.
if you are hobby-orientated, get the job what u like, u will envy ur richy frd who can treat you a dinner.
if you become money-orientated get the job that earn alot, u will envy ur frd still have ambition to pursue her dream
.................
see? it is contradicting
But it is not that bad really, u can choose the path at least. S
addest is you didnt even have a choice.

so, enjoy what you get and ...
The best is yet to come

富士山下

何不把悲哀感覺　假設是來自你虛構
試管裡找不到它染污眼眸

前塵硬化像石頭　隨緣地拋下便逃走

我絕不罕有　往街裡繞過一周　我便化烏有

Photoblog - Carousel at London

find this photo in flickr...

it taken on 2006 Apr. ..

i do really hope this carousel still standing in Jubilee Garden @ 2007 Apr..

i really hope ^^

spinning with...

feeling the happiness with...

photoblog - thur night

星期四的晚上大慨會出現於籃球場上

11月30日的晚上, 冷得很.

一年了, 感覺* 很久又很快.

想來想去, 也想不出2005年的11月30日在做什麼只知道. 現在心情好得很~
Dec, 來了

microsoft vista -Windows Flip and Windows Flip 3D

Windows Vista provides two entirely new features to manage windows: Windows Flip and Windows Flip 3D. Flip allows you to flip through open windows (by using Alt+Tab), providing a live thumbnail of each window, rather than just a generic icon and file name.

Live thumbnails make it easier to quickly identify the window you want, particularly when multiple windows of the same kind are open.

With Flip 3D, you can use the scroll wheel on your mouse to flip through open windows in a stack, and quickly locate and select the one you want to work with.
Use Flip to view and navigate more easily through open windows.
Use Flip 3D to navigate through open windows using the scroll wheel on your mouse.

those microsoft crews sucks...

where's their brain..huh?

copy catsssss.....

p.s. but honestly, it look pretty =p

Holiday season rings in the phony absences

NEW YORK (Reuters) - 'Tis the season for calling in sick, especially if you're not sick at all.

One in three workers has called in sick when they're not in the past year, and the end-of-year holiday season brings a rash of phony absences, experts and studies say.

"We do know just anecdotally in dealing with employers that there certainly is a higher rate ... associated with holidays, catching up on shopping, or spending time with family and friends,"

The firm's survey, released this week, showed 32 percent of workers said they called in sick when they felt fine at least once in the last year, and one in 10 said they did so three times or more.
Women were more likely to take a sick day when they are not sick than men, by 37 to 26 percent, the survey said.But be careful. The same survey showed 27 percent of hiring managers have fired a worker for calling in sick without a legitimate reason.

"The worst part is, if you lie and they see you out at a sporting event or shopping or you run into somebody you know, then it brings your trustworthiness into question," said Sullivan.
The trick is doing it right, writes Ellie Bishop, author of "The Sick Day Handbook" that is chock-full of tips for taking a not-really-sick day.

She suggests if you're claiming a migraine headache, know there are two kinds, cluster and classic. Claiming Lyme disease is handy, because one symptom is irritability.
Conjunctivitis and irritable bowel syndrome are good excuses because no one wants to hear about the symptoms.
HOLD YOUR NOSE

*Call in with your excuse to a co-worker early, before the boss arrives, clear your throat for five minutes beforehand and hold your nose as you speak, she suggests.
*Never make up anything that might need to be proven, like a doctor's appointment or a trip to a hospital emergency room, she writes.
*Only try it two or three times a year and, above all, remember your lie, she adds.

"I think we can get away with a lot more than we think we can," she said.If you do get caught, Sullivan added, employers tend to be a little bit more understanding than they once were."If people just need a mental health day or they just need to get away from the office, I think employers are much more understanding of that than they would have been 10 or 20 years ago," she said.

"That's a trend that has strengthened certainly over the last few years, where people are just more aware of the work-life balance," Sullivan added, "because you tend to have more productive workers and you have happier workers if they're able to maintain that balance between their commitments at the office and their commitments at home."

*haha, a very meaningful and funny passage
* I will hold my nose next time for sure~

Red bomb dinner

having dinner with Bren, fanny and Little Bride Katie last night.
haven't seen Katie for a long time since she left ex-company ( thats my fault really >.<)
we had a very nice chat , talked about our recent life....

Very nice chat.....
Congrat Katie will become a wife on Dec8... ^^

p.s. sorry for standing all u gals up ...i do really want to treat u gals a dessert as the compensation.
p.s.ii. see? i can make this over-stressed little bride smile again...^^hoho

2006-11-28 / 2months02days

i had been here for 2months and 2 days
i just realize the workload is much moooore heavier than before..

all stuff keep accumulating, queue up.......
i didn't want to bring those jobs back home, it is kinda depressing when u keep looking at the monitor, right hand keep clicking the mouse at 1100pm

really hope it is not the reason of headache....i do really hope.....
omg, headache will never end if it is tat bloody reason...........

to all setting ppl: 傳統英式聖誕舞會

致各親愛的朋友 :

聖誕節快將來臨, 在這溫馨浪漫的節日, 我們應聚首一堂, 舉辦一個傳統英式的聖誕舞會.

日期 : 12月的23日至26日內,兩日一晚 (希望各位至親的朋友回覆那日較為方便)
地點 : 大嶼山, 渡假屋 (如有其他建議, 歡迎提供)
內容 : 傳統英式舞會, 傳統英式聖誕餐, 傳統英式"紳士遊戲"........ (當然還有不可缺少的交換禮物)
衣著 : 傳統英式紳士/ 淑女

希望各位至親都能抽空出席, 同時亦歡迎帶同舞伴參加. 邀請柬會於稍後由專人寄交府上.

傳統英式聖誕舞會籌委會
31屆SETTING TEAM

P.S. 請在本星期以電陲方式回覆籌委會參加與否及理想日期, 以便安排地方.
如有遺忘的至親好友, 請幫忙轉寄.

ladies and gentlemens, i m hereby responsible to inform this infomation to ALL 30th Setting. ( Hang will responsible to inform 29th Settin.
what do u think, huh? Please contact me as soon as u can. ( so lazy i am )
english ladies, with a very narrow waist ..opps, i think i need a corset first....

Jan: i lost Ming contact, pls contact him for me, thx a lot~ xxx

i still believe

vivian hsu, my goddess．( her black one-piece dress .....lovely~)
whole mv's editing is good...esp. fade-in/out..... i need to work hard on this

愛散發的溫柔  在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起  讓幸福轉動

Baby I still believe  愛可以走過亂流
緊緊握住雙手  一秒鐘
不孤單寂寞

Baby I still believe  愛有夢才快樂
就算未來的路都不同
你和我  到永久

the perfect gift, is never quite finished

men buy gifts, women create families....
唉呀，這就是我...wakaka

p.s. 很愛daily comics widget..hohoho

Happy Our 366 Days

與男友在家中Hae下, 看過那很Rough的MV , 下午茶, 心情很是愉快 很久也沒有玩Bowling. 第一Round真是最好呢 ( Kenny 和 Simon 那兩個力神,crazz~) 晚上飲著零味的shooters, 感覺只是飲著果汁....5杯都沒有任何反應 凌晨二時四十分,銅鑼灣 三時二十分到家, 心情因快速的巴士感到興奮 睡不著就不斷拿著相機胡亂拍.....Ka Cha~ 想一想, 這相機陪伴我剛剛兩年了.. 整星期, 發著非常怪的夢 見到很少見的朋友 , 走進我還未出生的時代....... (可能是那本張愛玲小說惹的禍 )

)

12th = 1st ( upper-part)

12th month = 1st year.嘻嘻
時間真是很快. 一年了........
找到很meaningful的禮物, 但International shipping........

昨晚: 已經夠驚險, 取餅, 忘記那咭, IFC Paperas咭, Jumbo Grade筆, HSBC, 成功

今早: 更加驚險, call courier at 9, courier 到達at 12:15pm, 我要5:30pm到哇.....

中午: 很甜呢 . 外套(雖然不太襯我的one-piece), 大大玫瑰花, Pret-A-Manager Yogurt..Kisses..........甜甜XD
同事問我這yogurt是不是比平時的甜, 我答"當然呢......"


現在3:30pm 很心急

my sister's new home@ dudley

it is my sister, not me
with her new home, 200quids per week.

saw her lovely home, so jealous....
i think it must be great when u sitting in front of this big window, feeling the chilly air and watching the snowfall in christmas time.....
decorate a tiny christmas trees, lighting up the candles, playing the carols, having a glass of champagne with hon. hugging him till sleep.......

no drink-till-die, no money spending............
just luv............
splendid........so envy........

I am moved when I saw my photo is being there^
p.s. how come that wardrobe seems sooo short, huh

the break-up

在家中休息期間看了The Break-up
本以為這片只是一般愛情comedy,
但這影片令我想起一點東西

他們的吵架對話似曾相識

女的不斷complain男方只懂一回家就沒脫下鞋子就開著遊戲機, 沒有心裝載女方所說的
女方complain放工回家還要打掃煮飯, 不停計算自己付出多少,但對方卻什麼也沒有做過

男方complain女方只懂嘮嘮叨叨,他只想一回家有半小時的時間去放鬆一下
男的答應幫忙女方的整理打掃時, 女方卻說男的根本沒有心去做.
男的complain女方不斷要求他著衣服好看點, 顏色配搭一點..........

很似曾相識.

放手時,
女方專登嬲怒對方, 要他知道沒有女方之後的生活有多糟,令他回頭認錯
男方就往往認為自己沒有錯, 只是女的有新追求者, 而已生活有幾爛得幾爛, 令她後悔. "我就是這樣, 你也不能理我什麼"
百計盡出, 目的就只有一個.
後來態度放軟, 但已經太遲, 最後分手收場


故事最後, 雙方出售他們的屋:
Jennifer說" if we didnt buy that huge sofa and this super long table, i think it can place a snooker table as you wish"
如果雙方不是只顧著自己的想法, 不要太介意付出與收獲的比例
事情就可以解決......

a great lesson for me...hehe. ^^

p.s. To someone: Baby, don't be silly , it is just a memory, a lesson for contribute beautiful future lei. and the main pt is , i ... ^^

p.s ii. 片中chicago下雪, 我很想很想去............

the sims 2 - pets

The Sims 2 - Pets expansion pack....
好得意, 好想買..唔知有冇for mac platform 呢 ?(不過我連original the sims2都未買...)

好得意...我想要golden retriever...........嘻嘻

Dear Joe,

唉呀, 咁都知道我要交幾多錢電話費....-_-"
聰明..........

peace-

起床, 頭痛如常，是日休息一天
一碗外賣粥，一盒至愛腸粉，三種不同名稱的頭痛藥，一包胃藥，一包鎮靜藥


公司工作如常堆積著
想起，頭痛加劇
不想了

終告不冶

certified...

goodbye, my ipod remote....
(tat 's the last photo taken before being thrown into the rubbish bin )

headache

27.Oct.06
When the flight take off at Chek Lap Kok airport..headache start..

Today , 20.Nov.06
Sucks...i start realize this haunted me for 3 weeks ....


i had taste all kind of headache....
even can't concentrate on my work today
I hate panadol, it is just a cheating
it is not to ease my pain, it is solely to anesthetize my body~

medic. where's the medic?

time's up, pen's down

3400字, 令我想起那篇關於aesthetic in all art form essay
Word中的spelling and grammar, 令我想起讀書時的日子

用了三天晚上終於完成. 鬆了口氣
鬆口氣得就像等同跑100米, 終點, 眼前一黑, 腳軟, 倒下
由" 清者自清, 我不用為任何人交代" 到了後來的三千多字
...

不過無可否認的是
人大了, 知道自己cherish了一段關係/一件物件時就會努力去做

我又清楚了自己多一點

p.s. 現在只好一直開著.mac webmail. click著, 等待著
p.s.ii. 是時候倒下了

jan'

thx jan jan's cheer up.
my brain spins for 2 weeks without stop.
exhausted

人, 的確大了

1st gen ipod vs PowerMac G5

我的iPod不再喜歡我了
而我的G5又好像不再喜歡我的iPod了

一plug in, G5就呆掉了.
相繼remote壞掉之後再來這一著
我為了它, 用不合理的價錢(兩次)從美國headquater訂來remote


我再三保護著你,
但你是想離開我嗎?
...

exam in progress

exam-paper

整整一個星期, 發生了很多事, 人像虛脫了
這星期想了很多東西:

由初初不斷在想為什麼會這樣, 到後來想她行為之目的, 那spy的目的, 對那所謂的指責進行檢討, 對自己看人的準則存疑, 再想我應如何去做....很多很多...
腦子在整星期沒一刻停下來
心情也沒有怎樣好過.


星期六晚上,有了新的進展 ( as Liliun said, Things are mobile definitely )
有了一個"去解釋"的機會, 而且還要談及future這個命題 (我相信主要都是關於career 與health之prospect)
三個explanation, 一個elaboration...
Background info, Explanation, Elaboration, Compromise, Suggestion, Planning..
比畢業論文更難更複雜
而且我作答關連著兩個人的事.....
不過怎樣也比沒有自辯的機會好得多
想好一點就是, 這是我們一週年的考驗呢.


一件還一件, 先解決這, 再解決其他的事吧
今晚開始正式作答


p.s. thank you for alll guys...ur support, ur analyze, ur opinion, ur comfort....^^
p.s.II thank you for ur own explanation, ur sharing of ur thoughts and suggestion. i feel better alot. muah~

time machine for Mac OSX

Go back in time
With Time Machine, you can restore your whole system from any past backups and peruse the past with ease. Can't find a file you want? Enter Time Machine - time-based browser to see a snapshot of how your entire system looked on any given day ?file by file. When you find the file you want, just select it and restore it. Time Machine brings it into the present. You can do the same with a group of files, whole folders, even your entire system. With a single click.

It is the most outstanding function of Leopard for Mac OSX, absolutely useful. cost HKD1000....omg ..

our time

really looking forward to that day when i can hug my bf to sleep till sunrise, birds sing.

home together , cook, play, tv together, sleep, morning kiss
argue face to face, wake him up when i cant sleep, using naughty way to wake him up.....

it must be a wonderful time.
i want to, really want to

...

在英國的其中一個舅父有四個小朋友,也是我的表弟表妹
四個中，有一個是有自閉症...
媽媽家族中沒有人有這個病, 聽說舅母家族有這種纇型的病.....

我在英國生活的時候也到了他們的家數遍
看見這個表弟，心情怎樣都不好
他一個坐在地上一時笑一時哭,自言自語
媽媽常說 他活在自己的世界裡可能更好呢...我不以為然
我常常想和他說話, 想走進他的世界..

他沒有和我說過話,一次也沒有
只記得有一次他拿著我的nike波鞋周屋走，怎樣也不還給我。舅父說他很喜歡我那對波鞋
當時我覺得這個表弟也許是上帝給舅父一家的一個考驗也是一個禮物

今天晚上
舅父來電，說表弟患了骨癌,在醫院了....
這不是一個老年紀的人患的病嗎...
13歲的小朋友..上天不是太過份嗎
沒有憐憫心嗎...他suffer仍然不夠嗎
不公平不公平不公平不公平不公平


pray..
我想到英國去...

letter to my warrior

Dear my brave warrior,

I knew the war is fierce. I m sorry that i cant go into the battlefield with u. I m sorry that i can do nothing

but now i m just stand by your side , support you all the time, no matter what.

i know my warrior is fighting for me... i know that....i know that...

But i just dun want you feeling bad and getting hurt during this battle.

I m fine, really fine.. I still can cheer u up...dun worry , i m always yours, ur little princess

Be brave and optimistic.

Lets defend that altogether, and contribute the future

we can taste the sweetness of the triumph ...

with lots of luv and kiss,

ur sha

(aiya... i m so naughty, there s a joke beneath, just highlight it ... it seems destroy this poetic things tim)

( but this is a kind of cheer-up also, hehe )
My warrior, 5d eat more red mushrooms (not blk one ar..u will get poison ga ha)sin la ( mushroom same as Mario that Nintendo game), u can have high combat effectiveness when u getting fatter, nonono, bigger...ga la.....eat dou d eat dou d.....

sentenced to death

昨晚. 哭死了
這是第一次打電話給友人第一句是她的名字, 第二句不是說話, 而是嘩啦嘩啦哭了出來...
她嚇壞了, 問' 你是不是看完那一公斤眼淚所以哭呢 ?'
我承認我的確有過這個習慣. 但我有數月已經再沒有這樣做了, 在街上做是我從來不的
我承認我會飲酒, 但我不是alcoholic. 不是天天也要happy hour..　
我的衣著本是如此, 不會專登露背低胸, 衣服美就可以了
上次那件事，怎樣看我也是要這樣做...
'你是怎樣了,被人這樣都沒有任何的反應' , 但試想想如我那樣的話...
'嘩，你打他，根本你沒有考慮當時的情況呢.. 他的朋友在這裡的，他們會怎樣看你呢，畢竟打人就是不對' 或者是...
'唉呀, 你看看, 他為了你被人控告了...'

所有東西，百詞莫辯　
哭過後，心情好一點但對整件事也沒有用...
最傷心是
認識了我9個月, 為什麼她在這一刻相信第三者但不相信我
如果她一直也覺得我是如此，畢竟也早點對我說
一個被屈感覺，欲哭無淚
就如還未給予自辯的時間就判了死刑，　送上斷頭台　

今早，頭痛死了
開始知道我何時會頭痛...
今早好了不少, 我覺得也做不到多少....
後來, 聽到更多被屈的東西.
相信我, 我不是害人的

我永遠也想他好
現在我只希望知道她的想法是什麼, 我希望她會appreciate我之前所做的
我是真心去做..沒有刻意討好她
我也明白他夾在中間也很難受, 要cheer-up...一起努力呢
要證明自己是一個怎樣的人, 也為了他呢

Time can prove
BTW, I m so scareeally scare..
just want to jump into his hug and cry...my ultimate shelter...
Believe me I will not do anything to harm u

p.s. 吃過神戶牛柳作午餐, 心情真會好一點的啊..
p.s. II 多謝扮sickleave 的Jason之開解, 我下次會應約的了, but I hate whisky really...

sat. & sun.

joined grandma's birthday dinner yesterday night. i had seen lots of relatives at the venue... i saw my cousin's son ( i didnt know how to call him. ) u know, i can't recognize him coz in my memory he is juz a little boy. but its totally different.....he is taller, humorous, considerate ....
when i saw him....it is the sign of getting old...
and how lucky my cousin is..had this lovely son..

and i have chatted with my bro during the whole dinner
i think any choice is good for him....just stick on ur decision and live on

p.s. wish my grandma getting healthier and happier all the time

---

stay at home all day long..
tidy up my room ... rent a very boring korean movie .. i fell asleep twice during the movie.......
watched my favourite tv programme - globe trekker..
watched the tv news tonight..about taiwanese president chen and his first lady 's corruption stuff...
i just wondering why he and his wife still do that even they are rich already...

as that critic guy said.....it is so tempting when they know they can get that money easily. but it is not the season to do that cuz his is the main idol in that country...how can he do tat...

i think he must be banish ..

---

and now...i am watching the japanese soap opera vcd 一公斤眼淚 (thx, my bro), 3rd episole
i luv sad movie indeed..... cry is a kind of release......

"our life is sooo fragile that u cant expect, cherish all things around. "

---

我沒有
控制不到
很無奈

*

*認識了六年多的好友A小姐家中又發生了怪事. 陰沉的孖生姐妹, 是思覺失調還是鬼魅作祟?
男聲出自她們口中的是她媽媽的自我安慰還是真有其事?
這六年內先後發生大大小小的事..
還記得兩年前的日記wish she will reborn .......但無奈..
願她家人一切安好

*頭痛持續..這小鬼對我還不薄 ((但今天連偏頭痛也來打擾, 真不幸)
在上海的頭兩天頭痛..後三天沒有事...回來香港後開始了....在上海總算是好好的過
晚點才吃藥吧..........

photoblog - 娃娃

在上海買了作為給自己的禮物
是可愛的娃娃…
她的樣子很像很滿足似的
當然啦. 有玩具玩, 有人鍚, 穿得漂漂亮亮又不用上班… 多好.

我也想這樣..

Re: Damien Rice

很想回應ss的blog. ..關於damien rice

The first time i met his song is from the movie - Closer.
its song seems named the blower's daughter.

its lyric..his voice....got a sense of loniness and sadness..
I luv this kind of loniness......

p.s. my itune library is sooo messy too

souvenir

I m back.. will write about that luxurious trip later ~

昨晚在家中開始整理自己的行李, 照片,以及給男友的souvenir..
為那些東西拍拍照, 寫下一點東西
很高興 (我就是有自得其樂的小聰明…嘻嘻)

*再發現自己開始有點病病的…..快樂過後永遠是這樣
真不解

check-in

7:30am Check-in in advance @ IFC ( sorry, i was late)
the flight ticket that i booked last year used finally.......this journey delay for 1 yr time..

breakfast with Windy and bf at McDonald...
i didnt had that breakfast for a long time, ho mei
happy that bf will come to join us @8:00am.

8:40am, Star Ferry towards TST
sunshine and wind breeze are great.. i luv ferry indeed..so relaxing....

my mood fly up high~