lost and found

Finally I got some update…
Seems I m almost get into the relationship…

I start not to mention about my ex much
I start not to visit his facebook already
I didn’t think what he was doing during weekend
I start to think about someone already
I start to know more about him .
The dark cloud still overhead me, but the cloud is getting thinner

I don’t want to calculate and test how much he cares , how much he likes me
I just wanna to give all I can ….
It was my principle. But somehow it was lost due to the hurts

I need to have faith and trust. J
God pls give me strength and guide me…

halloween bash *

i think its should be my best halloween party ever
dont need to care anything, just have fun with my frds..

i love all of them.

seems i m having a new life now :)

something memorable from my little sketch book

bone marrow.

grandma stayed in the hospital for few days
and yesterday, doctor need to extract her bone marrow for testing...

bone marrow....
how painful it will be esp. for a 94-years-old lady

pray for her...

recap*

To my friends,

謝謝你們的關心, 這段時間打擾到你們了

今天聽了小故事, 願分享
一個男孩背著沙鍋, 沒有其他行裝穿州過省
有一天繫在沙鍋的繩子斷了, 整個沙鍋跌在地上, 沙鍋破了
那男孩竟頭也不回就一直向前行, 旁人看了就問 ‘ 為什麼你不看看那沙鍋怎樣 ?’
他回答 ‘沙鍋破也破了, 補也補不了, 乾脆不用再回頭了 ’


一段關係有開始也需有一個明確的終結
如果要用時間來終結, 或者拖拖拉拉 吞吞吐吐 , 又或者再一路逃避
那倒不如我自己來作一個明確的了斷


就如那男孩那樣說‘沙鍋破也破了, 補也補不了, 乾脆不用再回頭了 ’



我單身了
也成長了

Love & kiss,
Sha

understand that finally

只一格　經典的偶遇已　不再
盡量框住目前　大概

留住溫度　速度　溫柔和憤怒
凝住今日　怎樣好
捉緊生命濃度　坦白流露　感情和態度
停下時光　靜止衰老

其實人生　並非虛耗
何來塵埃飛舞

imu

energy

bday present announcement ( in advance )

thought he will not visit here

my bday present *

品嘗食物*

IMU 04

炭B 你好.
明天你就回來. 希望你會開你的mailbox看到這些emails呢.

我從台北回來都有兩天了
本想一下機回家做寫EMAIL給你但真是太累
今次的旅行行程實在太緊密, 而我也發生了一件很exciting的事呢, 不過這些要配合照片, 遲一點給你看 ..)
我們也到了Room18 呀,裝修了, 再漂亮一點. 不過舞池小了, 我們五個人就是站在上面.
在那兒,我在想我們的第一次在room18的時侯 (還記得kirk玩到丟了眼鏡嗎? 嘻嘻……).
你應該感謝吧,我到了club也在想你呢..:p我很乖呀, 一位bartender想認識我也沒有理會太多 ( 好的就是我們有free drinks ).

你的手信我已經叫aunt幫我轉給你 J
明天你回來, 會像一個黑人嗎? :p

IMU 03

你好嗎？ 己經有十天沒有聯絡了, 這是第一次吧

原來發現沒有聯絡過的和平時的很不一樣
感覺很不實在, 時間比你去hangzhou的時間慢得多


有時會想你會不會不記掛我了，你會不會認識了其他可愛的人呢

silly thoughts 有時真的太多

明天一早就會到機場了 ,出發到台北 :)
會玩 會吃 會買
哈哈


想念你

DAY 1

DAY ONE

10:35AM HKG departure ( sha & windy )
12:00PM LANDED
1:00PM ARRIVED HOTEL AND EARLY CHECK IN.
3:00PM FAYE & ANGUS ARRIVED
4:00PM GO TO 五分埔 TOGETHER

8:30PM BACK TO HOTEL
9:00PM GO TO NIGHT MARKET

0:00 STAY BACK HOTEL AND REST. ( OR DEPENDS ON HOW TIRED WE WILL BE )


DAY TWO

10:00AM BREAKFAST
10:30AM WALK AT NEARBY AREA

12:30PM 台北火車站 →瑞芳 TRAIN



6:30PM LEAVE 十分
7:30PM ARRIVE HOTEL
9:00PM MA LAT HOT POT

11:30PM CLUB ( ROOM 18 OR BARCODE, WHEREVER )


3:00AM REST





DAY THREE

10:00AM BREAKFAST
10:30AM 光南大百貨
誠品
SPORTWEAR SHOP
...


7:10PM SHA & WINDY FLT BACK TO HK

CU TAIPEI

IMU 02

炭B你好：）
不知道你又在做什麼呢？ 可能你在一個不知名的山頭露營中. 對著營火唱著歌 :p
今天天氣很好所以到了淺水灣晒太陽
太陽真是太猛，晒了大概兩小時我就變燒豬了，現在又黑又紅又痛
我在想我晒了兩小時己是這樣，那你的十五天會變變成怎樣呢？

想念你

p.s.今天細細也要去整指甲呢。有一隻指甲因為太長之後反插入toe入面，整個toe也腫了，所以帶他整指甲 （不過平宜得多 hkd30 :p), 這張照片是他在袋子裡。他像不像頭lup著絲襪那些賊人呢？嘻嘻

IMU 01

你好嗎 ?
不知道你在做什麼呢？ 凌晨一點了，你應該睡了吧
今天晚上電視又有播關於 michael jackson 的歌
聽到thriller, 想起你電話的鈴聲
想起你

Luv & Kisses,
sha*

mo-la-la-fifteen-days-outward-bound-trip

today is the 1st day of his mo-la-la-fifteen-days-outward-bound-trip.
mm...
today i feel abit unstable, maybe i know starting from today till 22nd, we will not have any connection, and even i dun know where he will be... :(

anyway, its a good trip for him so i should be happy for him as well lor
see u , ar b


p.s. however i feel abit upset that he didnt call before the trip. just a sms....

changes

actually i do wanna write down sth today , so i m trying to fasten my pace to type before i go to sleep.

theres 2 incidents

* last night we were lying on the bed and watching the TV programme which talked about some lovely pets.

it shows a 24-years-old cat which is very old, she nearly blind and move very slowly. Leon said ' she seems miserable ' of cuz, i do understand how harsh the cat will be, at the first moment, i also think the cat looks pity.

but after few minutes, my thoughts change.

my thoughts swing like - the cat is blessed since she can stay with her master for 24years, she can play with her master's son and daughter too. Staying with the master is the happiest thing in every pet's life. So its not a torture. its a kind of blessing.. 

'u are right ' leon replied

* today i had chatted with jackal, he feel a bit upset about getting older. He think time fly too fast so he still cant fully utilized his life. however,i do have a different feeling towards aging.

aging is not the meaning of the-end, its just a stage and it also let old people to enjoy and experienced. we can go to play Tai Chi , we can do something which we havent do during youth time.... its not a wasting as long as you dun think it a kind of waste. We still can do something do as long as you are willing to try

so why not just enjoy and experience every stages in our life ?

jackal replied ' i also want to be this optimistic . u are such an optimistic person '

huh ?! i had never heard about that before. OPTIMISTIC seems not a good description of me.

however after these 2 incidents ,i know my thoughts really different from before ..

what changes me ? 

dun know.....but i do like it :)

his home sweet home

Finally, bf is back.
I didn’t have any exciting feeling in the sat. morning. Received his msg about his flight delay… so i just do my my stuff slowly…
His plane landed at 8pm finally and I arrived airport at 8:15pm…
So he showed up when I had been waiting for 15mins, my face looked calm however my heartbeat was fast.

He hugged me and then we went to his place for dinner.
The feeling just like the old days, normal and sweet… and it seems we didn’t apart for long.
Maybe its call ‘stability’

:)

踢一腳走一步

有些人總要被踢一腳先懂得走多一步

現在明白對著這些人
我還要更慢，還要冷靜

因為踢他一步，他走多一步
但要他走多兩步？！他總不會自動自覺。


寧願留下這腳骨力，做瑜珈好過

wondering about my old self.

friday, just having a holiday break yesterday , so actually today's holiday mood keep going on and on...........

actually nothing special in these few days.
but really , communicate with rikc is comfortable i have to say, he got loads of stuff wanna share wif you, but of cuz, love vanished for long, so anyway its good to have a frd like him.

Ms.Tiff reminded me about b's first trip to mumbai.
and then i browse the old blog, realize sth :
* i was extremely care about his text or email ....
*do lots of things before he leave ( that boarding pass reli reli nice, i m stunned still ' how can i make it ? ' )....
* cant stop thinking ' why he did that ? ' ' why he didnt that ? ' ...

after 2 years.
i just wondering my old self...........

i m really getting mature...