black /bad monday

4 days to my holiday and suppose i should feel very relax at work but i m not !!! 

this new year resolution - 

1. be low profile, its just a workplace.

2. follow up everything on ur own, don't expect the stranger can help you out !! they will just step on you and strive for the lifejacket if the boat crash onto the iceberg!

3. be a staff who will not b blamed by others but not necessary to b a very good one, don't need to be that creative, just follow up well the document, arrive office on time, use less my iPhone. thats easy!

4. maybe its time to limit my Facebook profile.

understand that finally

只一格　經典的偶遇已　不再
盡量框住目前　大概

留住溫度　速度　溫柔和憤怒
凝住今日　怎樣好
捉緊生命濃度　坦白流露　感情和態度
停下時光　靜止衰老

其實人生　並非虛耗
何來塵埃飛舞

踢一腳走一步

有些人總要被踢一腳先懂得走多一步

現在明白對著這些人
我還要更慢，還要冷靜

因為踢他一步，他走多一步
但要他走多兩步？！他總不會自動自覺。


寧願留下這腳骨力，做瑜珈好過

R.I.P. my iphone

五月十一日. 星期五早上...

因為我的不小心掉進水中, 經過兩天的搶救也終告不治..

修理師傅開了機殼指著那些入水的痕跡...我也不清楚這次上次在LA時入可樂的還是今次廁所水的..
那些收機的,對我說 '樣子還不錯, 只可惜...'

最後我的iphone賣了, 只得六百大元 ( 算是很不錯了 )


往往就是這樣,
當它還在時, 我還大大聲對朋友說我要脫離iphone family..
現在, 我真是很不捨 (但我認為再花數千元買同一款機實在太無聊 )

不過可能就是時晨已到.
aunt提醒我上一次在LA入水也是她生日前的一天, 那次是僥倖地生還
今次就是她生日的後一天......
世事就是這麼的巧合

aunt說 ' 你賺左架啦 ! '

是的
賺了一年多兩天

rest in peace

what a lovely LAST duty flight :(

wat a ...

best western hotel @ seoul

I have to say is i calculated everything but its really means nothing finally.

The flight to LA is smooth.
and during LA, i read quite alot of the book life of pi. meanwhile, i went to palm spring the outlet, santa monica (but its not much interesting as i assumed), i got a very heavy american food as my dinner but the buffalo wings are definitely good. I went to manhattan beach mall again but surprisingly i spend alot on victoria secret..LOL....

Everything seems nice and smooth
but my returning flight is ..eh....sighhhh....

passengers is normal except one family is totally demanding and picky. however i really dun like those zi jei, they are absolutely disgusting and fake.
and the worst thing of this flight is, DIVERSION. I m staying in Seoul now, its good that i have around $1300 for the allowance and i can have kimchi and bim-bim-bar. But my sunday's plan gone and the most important is my new job starting day had been altered cuz at this moment i m still not sure whether i can leave tonight.

the worst case is i have to stay here tonight and then operating back tomorrow.
but of cuz i do pray for myself being PX back HK tonight.


will let u guys know about it later

fingercross
xx

god pls help me...

I don't know whether anyone can understand my situation.

what would you do if you don't like it ? quit it then
what would you do if you need money ? work hard and earn
what would you do if the economy may goes to recession ? keep your job and be patient
what would you do if you feel unhappy when you go ? don't go then, be happy


If all these sentences happens on you at the same moment, how can you choose ?
maybe you may say i don't have a choice.

maybe its the only way

Try to make yourself happy to work to earn money, quit the job when the economy turns good.
However, i m not a patient person.


god, pls give me a job.
i don't want to see my upcoming Dec roster on Nov16, pls .....

Controllable / Uncontrollable

My mood still dropping..
i know what should I do and what should I behave
but i do miss it.

i feel so lonely when I got a suite room in dubai.
why they give me such a big room? i dun want it actually.
i feel bad when the plane start to decend, suddenly i m thinking his voice, the soft voice named me bb.


i went to water park with crews today but i still can't into it.
I laugh i enjoy the place but when I return to a lonely place, sadness come quicker than usual

' when u start plugging the earphone immediately when you get on the crew bus, i know u got something wrong ' one crew Maggie told me.


tonight i really want to send a text.
finally i controlled it

but once when i can control my finger not to type any text, my tears just falling from my face.
useless sha.

sit back & relax

i didn't need any think tank.

just sit back and relax sha

***

當我今早在他家中看到日本東北又發生７級的地震時

我在想地球變得恐怖，大家都不知道下一秒就會發生什麼
看完之後
我只想抱著他

earthquake

有些地方一鏟子下去就有五個人(屍體)
中國地震局消息，截至17日8時，共發生4級以上餘震143次
.....

these news are appearing on the TV, webpage , everywhere.
all pictures in the newspaper are just breathtaking & heartbreaking.
can u imagine 2.8million lives had been lost in only 5mins earthquake ?
can u imagine how serious of 7.8 magnitute earthquake ?the news said you even can't stand up......
can u imagine maybe you are the only survivor in the whole building ?

the news said government only can provide a very small amount of rice to each person per day.....
i feel bad that i waste half plate of sphagetti last night....

god bless those ppl still waiting for rescue...
u will see the light very soon, you will be fine....cheer up & have faith....

安心

因為什麼要到澳洲呢？
澳門從來沒有列入我喜歡到的旅行地方之列

如果要去的話可能是令我安心一點吧
如何安心呢？

我喜歡去你到的地方
相對於接機，我比較喜歡一起坐plane 回來
我喜歡大家在同一個continent
對我而言。機票也實在太貴
也要用上不少假期 。最少都要一星期了
這個是我有所考慮
也是我所謂的’should i go ?'

要是真的到澳洲的話
我也不會留在酒店吧
我自己會找東西玩.周圍去周圍玩
而且還有數天可以待在一起
之後一起回來

這是我一直的想法

我從來沒有想過監視什麼
事實上也沒有可能可以監視到一個人
我也不明白你說我這樣的

一聽到後,我自己只想不用理會
我想到其他地方旅行，不想令你有所誤會
不想令你覺得我要監視你

難道我現在待在你家裡就是等如我在監視你嗎
我只是因為喜歡和你待在一起的感覺
就是這樣簡單不過了

你這樣想令我真無奈

混亂的六月七月八月.
突然發現
不, 是三個月. 而不是兩個月.

dedicated to....

曾經有一首歌令你觸動過嗎 ?也有沒有人曾經獻你一首歌嗎 ?
它曾成為我手提電話的鈴聲, 也曾經迫過他在karaoke唱過這一首歌.

是的. 這首歌很重要吧

當他選擇用歌詞作為回覆 ' 如果你不能控制...'
之後我就再不會聽這首歌
要是她有的和我的也是同一樣的. 我不希罕


可能是我自作多情
他一直獻給的 都不是我

******

是的
最後發現這首歌根本沒有獻給任何一個人
哈哈
自作多情

幸好他知道如果他這樣做的後果...

*如要有什麼要獻給我的話,
請寫下我的名字
要不然我不會知道的.
謝謝.

16:34p.m.

* Missing

mm..still not recover yet..* some words juz missing in my recent life.
My Ears. My Mouth. My eyes ..seems not the same as before.
My current one are numb

I like my OLD ears . it can received any kind of sweet words from my bf and i feel warmed and touched.
I like my OLD mouth. It can tell my bf how much I love him, how much I miss him
I like my OLD smiling eyes. It can tell bf that i m happy.
How can I get those back ?
mm..

I need the Time Machine from Doraemon
or
Can u flying with me passing thru the harsh time ?

dream

昨晚作了一個怪夢, 我相信整晚腦子也想著這件事
凌晨五點, 很清醒 因為我仍清楚知道itune播放那首歌, 我還可以哼起來

害怕又為你失望 *

笨牛*松鼠*貓*大熊*雀仔*獅子*
世界根本就是動物園



隨上近照一張攝於昨晚agnes b.
笑得.未死得

我來完成你的期盼
...
..
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.
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.
.
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Dairy.. dedicate to Her.

被ipod作弄了

今早在巴士上面聽著iPod. 8:30am
第一第二首歌..
都不知道是不是它在玩弄我...

....
我撐起所有愛圍成風雨的禁地 擋狂風豪雨　
想讓你喘口氣 被劃破的信心　
需要時間痊癒 夢想纏著懷疑　
未來看不清 就緊緊的擁抱去傳遞
能量和勇氣　我愛你

哪裡都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品嘗回憶
一起誤會妒忌 一起雨過天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意義
....

...
你有說過　我要記得以後
誰人才是女友
玩樂時候　別要太自由
我答應過　我會記得回去
如常熱愛工作
然而別妨礙牽手

應該記得 記得
記得 陪住你
應該 記得記得
記得非常時期
守著承諾直到滿足你
說服你別再生氣
...





8:38 am 就哭了 >.<


p.s. dear friends, i will tell in suitable time. pls dun give me any opinions at this moment, i m exhausted. i need to move on.
i know u guys luv me , caring me and support me no matter wat. i luv u all.
juz give me some time.

前傳

7:00 a.m. wake up with a very bad sleep of coz. swelling eyes with slighty headache. but i do wanna sleep again, cuz i need to convert something for my company... need to work very hard today.

after 7:40pm last nite, i thoughts for hours.
i start realize he may upset by me...
1st sms : txt him in sudden tat i was going to china to having the massage on sat. mid-nite.
2nd sms: txt him we might not going to drink cuz we need referree to enter .
3rd sms: txt him we had finished the drink and heading to massage centre.

*he maybe pissed off by my act.
i txt him last night and he admit his mood was being affected even he dont mind i go there. but he was upset since i juz sms him so sudden, said no drink but drink in final. and he fell asleep after rec'd my 3rd sms.

but wat i question is , why didnt he sms after he wake up if he really said he didnt forget me ?
maybe time zone difference reli . i wait for his sms for almost 12 hours. but he didnt send me the sms for juz 4 hours... mmm...

Let's tackle the problem, i dun wanna blame anyone then.
coz i do believe i did sth bad of coz.....
and now, u owe me 1 mins.. =p

*sorry honhon. i m so afraid u forget this tiny me in the other side of the world.

one week gone

One week gone.

7:00 p.m.

back from china with windy and kenny.
i think i did wat i can and wat i want, juz keep update him where i had been to. before drink, after drink, going to massage center.. i did all i can,

i didnt received any sms back.
no sms to ask me to take care, no sms to tell me he had reached the hotel and sleep, no sms to tell me he was missing me....
no sms whatsoever. no one care.

i was worried he was not safe over there, windy had comforted me tat there's a very safe place and she should knew if they got sth happened.
i holded my cellphone for the whole nite to sleep last nite. nightmare even i slept on the coach. i give a hope to myself. "shasha, network should be sux and cant receive any sms from hk and oversea, you will get those txt when u back H.K. " unfortunately, i got my frd's sms, that should be the most saddest sms i get today.

3:00pm. on the way to h,k, -cellphone shut cuz of ran out of battery
good job. i dun need to check with my sms inbox from time to time. no expectation then.


7:40 p.m.

home. charging my cell now and no sms still ....
i txt him.. and he apologized and he said he had forget to charge his cellphone. he stayed inside the hotel for the whole day and he swam.
i feel myself stupid. i think i had expected too much.
he seems forget wat he promised before.

stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me stupid me

4 days left

kinda unrest when I wake up this morning.. it's 7:10am. A very bluish Sky, his jacket accompanied me to sleep for the whole night.
realize today is Wednesday, 9th May. 3 days left.
Staring at the sky... Imagining how much i will miss him, imagining how lonely i will be when he is not here

I know*I know*
Unhappiness Arise is a very normal phenomenon , isnt it?

But as u see, i think i m getting mature. coz i suppose i will start this at 1sth May.. it had delay for 10days . I will recover very soon .