morphine

why the people addict to morphine ?

u feel happy when this chemical running thru your vessels.....
but is it a true happiness? nope.....it is just a kind of cheating

i just keep injecting it into my body....
cheating ppl that i am happy
cheating myself that i am happy

am i happy?

all in a rush

all the stuff are in a rush...
when my boss confirm my idea at 11:30am, i need to hand in all *.ai sketch within the same day..5collections......

it sucks...
all people should know that is impossible. it is not just like a hand-sketch, can erase the things u unwant by eraser. if i really need to alter a line, it is damn difficult if its structure is complicated

luckily, i speak it out......


p.s. no lunch time for 2 days already. & i start working at HOME, my home sweet home, my lovely bed......
p.s. II, thank you for alex's word...we are working for future, just try hard to contribute ...u will get what u gave and be happy n healthy

love is...

on my dashboard, it shows ' love is... watching tv in bed, together'
i keep smilin when i read that, thats sweet indeed.

i m looking forward to this day

LOEWE

just find out it is in LVMH group , great~
Karl Lagerfeld, Giorgio Armanikarl lagerfeld n Giogio Amani were the designer for the first pret-a-porter collection

deadline: 3rd Oct.
for: Japan market , v.i.p. souvenir

1. tote bag
2. pouch
3. keyring
4. phone string

add oil baby~

"that's perfect"

headaches start from 00:00 in these few nights ...god...

it must be a signal to indicate " it's time to sleep" ( but i just back from the movie with windy...sigh......)

cya.

(but when i receive "that's perfect" email, feel so good )


p.s. tell you about the "devil wears prada" later ~

just 2 days..
give some time to pick up / to rearrange.

don't you think you can handle all the stuff well in these 2 days.. u are silly....
pressure must let u down

the newcomer

when i accept this position, the pressure must getting heavier than before, it s undeniable.
as before, i m assistant, helping my fucking senior. but now, i m independent.

i studied and worked in fashion design field before, but now, i m the graphic gal.
surprised that i got the courage to change to other field
the title changed, environment changed, even my work's nature changed.

these 2 days, damn busy ( although i can off at 7:30pm, i need to squeeze my time out and go to washroom during work time)
i need to amend / revise/ redesign the ex- designer's work, I HATE THAT.....
3 more designs need to hand in during this week, hell......i still didnt have any concept about TRIBAL stuff....paisley, symbol...sucks

" i want to be a graphic designer! " i told to my friends many times since i m studied in polyu ......

AND NOW, I M IN.....
but this bitch just thinking something else : its prospect, its future, my ability, my future..sucks~

p.s. it is 11:00pm, i should searching some reference for that. but now i have NO MOOD..
ng work la, designer need mood to work ga ma........( la, sha's excuse start again ~)

sweetest holiday*22.09 - 26.09

這一個假期就這樣就完結了。
本想休息到十月，但真沒想到這麼快就找到，沒法子了

不知為什麼，這個假期總有生離死別之感, 總想以後最少三個月也很難再請數天的假期（可能是因為那經理說的話吧.)

記下這個假期-

fri:
男友為了我請了假，吃過舊式茶樓的點心 (好好味...)，玩保齡球（又好像進步了^^), 之後兩個人到了stanley晒太陽,好寫意 ...晚上與kirk吃晚飯,看大丈2 (不錯的一套片子）

sat:
與 男友和他家人到了harvey nichols 吃過brunch （請不要誤會,不是貴貴的）之後陪aunt看看眼鏡 (我又看中了一副gucci的, hkd$1950, 很像有點貴，不過真是很襯我，又不用和bro用一副眼鏡,真好...不過又破財了 ..sigh....), 行行harbour city, 遇上最不想遇見的人. 晚上與 ryan*windy*kirk*liliun 到了 shooters52吃過晚飯, 之後來一個drinking party -

這一個drinking party是我說得最多話的，而且溝酒溝得最利害的一次: chivas很多杯, angel's kiss x2, tequilla shooter x2, magarita, vodka shooters x2. 我知道我是醉了，但不知因為什麼有很多人也對我說一些很嚴肅的說話. windy 和 jan baby 兩人醉著抱著我 （男士們不用羨慕了）
淩晨三時男友拉著我和janjan走了, janjan真是像隻小貓 =p （事實上,蠻感謝他, 我就是喜歡他這樣子, 他總令我想起剛一起時的一刻）

sun ﹣ mon:
本約了男友與他家人於11:00am於信德中心，8:00am男友已經叫我起床，但我真是宿醉了: 躺在床上不能動彈，之後想吐但肚子空空，胃子反了但什麼也吐不出 ，坐在厠所裡咬著牙刷一坐坐了大半小時，很辛苦
心想我還要坐jet，在船中盪來盪去。很怕aunt會見到我吐的樣子
11:15am到了信德 （我知我的樣子面青青的．一定難看得很）, 一上船就強逼自己要睡了，睡醒了好得好多
整 個macau trip 真是很好，有很好的massage與suana (很喜歡與aunt在sauna房身體只圍毛巾談天 以及她為我order的橙汁呢）, 有美食 (那魚和egg tart真是太好了)，有超棒的rasberry-flavor 的泡泡浴，有好男友的照顧與感謝他為了我背著重重的袋子在行行走走，而且被他抱著睡的感覺也真是很不錯 ^^ 真是很開心呢

tue:
是windy baby 的生日呢 ，happy birthday ar ^^muah~** （你要期待你的禮物啊）
與她的同事在central吃過lunch, 味道還真不錯，之後與壽星女行行街了
銅鑼灣的街上與商場沒有太多人,感覺很relax啊。
到了g.o.d.吃了很美味的apple pie with ginger ice-cream ( 這真是super match呢 ) , 談談天，我喜歡和她談天，沒有什麼要顧忌,舒服得多
晚上和家人吃吃晚飯，談談天．與小狗玩玩。
不過．心情蠻緊張

畢竟，這是人生中第二份工的第一個工作天
蠻期待，我知道我的樂觀主義細胞是時候出動了
sha. you will be fine. everything will be fine. tomorrow will be ur great day~
goodnight

不過,再見了我的假期 （ding,又來了，講到自己好像要關在牢中）

my celebrity look-alikes.

ayumi.....hottie gal....omg...

USB Cell Rechargeable Battery

A recent battery shortage here has left us all digging through drawers to try to find power for our Bluetooth keyboards. The USB Cell Rechargeable Battery from Moixa seems like a clever solution, turning any USB port into a battery charger. Currently available only in AA format, other standard sizes as well as camera and phone batteries are set to launch soon, making clunky chargers and enviromentally hazardous alkaline batteries obsolete. Two-packs are available online for £13.

that's useful wor..when we can buy it at hk le?

farewell

farewell...
although i had a hard time today, i cant stop smiling all the time (except when i m coughing and sneezing...)

2006.09.20 wed. sunny day

goodbye, my buddies (e.g. macro, carol, julie, michaelle, henry,..)
goodbye, my boss glad that u had this idea ( although it cant work out ), the proof is enough for me..
goodbye, my colleagues who loves me. thank you for everything
goodbye, my drawer key + calcular + staff card ( i m stupid...aiya...)
goodbye, that harsh email for my fuxking senior
goodbye, sharonma@choicewell.com

rejuvenated.

my memento - alarm

i m so exciting when my ical alarm pop up onto my screen
this is the first time in my life .
i can't stop myself not to capture that
my memento .

tibet

remember i had read a passage which talked about a girl from hong kong travelled to Tibet with her friends.
Unluckily, The girl passed away suddenly becoz of Acute Mountain Sickness.

After read, my frd and I both just whispering " oh, thats good if i can die in this such beautiful place "

Tibet...
in fact, i have planned to be there for a long time ..and i just remember that i told my frd that i should be there after i leave my current job..
But now......ding.........

i just found out ...planning is useless for me...

2006.09.17 sun * dogwalk with lolo

*與lolo帶了細細路到了西頁行行, 遇到很棒的英國梗牛狗

*到我們的老地方freezer cafe吃過choco truffle cake, 飲飲榔青.....很寫意
*又吃過又平宜又美味的泰國菜, 很棒的泰式香茅蝦沙律, 鴨胸咖哩, 蠔仔蛋?..美味啊

*細細路很黏身, 連我吃飯的時候也要睡在我的大腿上..他要看到我才安心的, 嘻

不過由於我穿的衣服可能有點單薄, 西貢這近海的地方晚上真凍得很. 不小心就著涼了. 加上本有點喉嚨痛的我再吃了那些辛辣的食品, 現在真是痛得不得了
昨晚也睡得不好? >_< so sad


你可知嗎,我打著這篇文章時現在穿著大褸, 鼻子紅紅, 鼻水不斷流, 右手打字左手用紙巾按著鼻
喉嚨痛得像被火燒, 咳嗽咳得..唉?桌子滿佈紙巾團?.唉呀......很辛苦呀
還有兩天就放假?..唉呀?

p.s. thankyou lolo: souvenir from Beijing ~ ^^

2006.09.16 sat * Movie & Pizza Day

到了PizzaHut吃了那挪威三文魚薄餅, 味道也不俗呀, 不過午餐吃薄餅+闊條麵, 真有點那個

*看了夜宴The Banquet, 很很很喜歡.
由初初開場那很震撼的場景以及悲哀的越人歌, 到了皇宮的場景, 真是很美. 美得過當年聲稱用著名日藉美指的英雄
本來我不大有興趣這片子, 原因是導演馮小剛令我不感興趣, 而且我真是不喜歡章子怡
但整影片令我改觀了:
章子怡真是美而且蠻有味道 ( 那短短的眉毛不是那麼容易handle得到的), 而且她的演技真是不俗( 可能是他的角色比較容易發揮吧)
歎優也十分棒, 他那 不愛江山愛美人, 很棒 . 反而吳彥祖真是不太吸引

*去play bowling (很像很久沒有玩似的), 其中一局第十round是連續兩次full-strike, 心跳加速,真興奮.

*縱使沒有什麼的很特別的一天, 但只要在身邊就真的感到開心了.
他說?你今天怎樣的了? 好少你會這樣呀?" 我不對你這樣哪還會對其他人這樣麼"


呵呵, 喜歡淘氣的我嗎? 嘻

the email b/w S and Y

S:你好吗, 这是我的私人邮件信箱
你是不是一早知道的辞职的消息的?
事实上我在工作上蛮不愉快 ( 大约都有半年的时间了) 所有我相信这决定是很对的

Y:我是上周三 13號那女人上來時同我說了一下﹐我也看得出你做的不開心﹐以前我也做得不開心﹐因為那女人﹐后來實在忍不住同她大吵了一架﹐工作上的事是怎么樣就怎么樣﹐我不會討好人也不會使自己做得委屈.
或許你的決定是對的﹐與她共事心里上有很大壓力﹐以后有什么打算?

S: 與她共事有大約一年的時間, 由本來都不俗到了後來現在的不瞅不睬.. 我也不知哭過多少遍.
我相信公司很多人都不太喜歡她 ( 始終她那拍馬屁的性格不是所有人也可以接受得到) , 不過我始終認為她的工作效率是蠻好的
在於公司的立場來說, 她也是一個得力的人

大約於三個月前M 召我到她的辦公室, 問我有關的事. 我對她哭著說了丁點兒
M叫我要體諒她, 因為她有很大壓力, 而且她控制不到自己的情緒, 叫我去遷就他
我心想, 怎可能叫下屬去遷就上司, 而且他連自己的情緒也控制不住, 他怎可以作為我的上司呢?

你可知道我上次上來講及我多點時間留在大陸學習, 其實主要的原因是余先生知道我工作上的不愉怏 , 所以希望我在上面學多點東西, 而且不用看她的面色
但那次的感覺實在太差, 我上來只是在寫字樓開辦單…心想, 我沒有做錯什麼事, 為什麼要我避開他呢
除了此, 我在B口中 ( 之前在公司的接待員) 知道 他叫S巴結M ( 因為M也是一個愛這一套的人呀 ), S 就可以快點升職了( 相對我就成為S的下屬了)
他的做法根本不配為上司
最後, 在我辭職前的數天 , 客人在了公司, 跟單問我的準備如何, 但您知嗎, 最後, 她進去開會了… 跟單對我她說原來我不用跟了… 我十分嬲, 連最基本的專重也沒有了
於是, 我決定離開了

Y, 我不像您啊,你的職位還比他還高.而且我和她共事的時間長得多… 我是下屬, 根本沒有可能和她吵, 沒有機會反擊呀……
而且Y也知道我的為人, 沒有什麼的脾氣的
她的性格令一個沒有脾氣的人也可以這樣, 她真" 棒" 了

我已找到了工作了, 但不是做回此行, 下星期會上班, 在一間日本公司做, 是平面/ 產品設計師, 而且我再不是助理了
蠻期待新的工作……. 現在很期待我的last day

Y: 首先恭喜你已找到工作﹐而且就象你說的已不再是做助理了﹐真替你高興﹐相信你以后一定做的很好﹐因為你是一個有能力且受人喜歡的女生.

她是這樣的人我們這邊全是看在眼里記在心里﹐所以這邊沒有一個人是喜歡她﹐要不是我在這邊給同事作思想工作﹐開解她們﹐她們早就同她唱反調了﹐我們同你一樣都是沒心計的人﹐不喜歡討好人﹐也不喜歡想著怎么去整人﹐總之每天過得心安理得。 但你也相信﹐那些拍馬屁﹐有心機的人她們每天活得累﹗

目前來說我工作方面沒太大的壓力﹐只是那個女人不再搞搞整就會輕松好多﹐我們這邊同事間都相處的挺好﹐工作上也蠻開心的., 只是事事變化﹐做到哪天也不知道.

常保持聯絡﹗

.

*昨天看了jolin的演唱會 , 沒有期待, 所以沒有失望..不過她的身形有點怪
喜歡其中一首歌. 歌詞酸溜溜的

*終於走出本想離開的地方, 還有數天, 真高興... 沒有什麼令我想/會留戀 (不過carol真是不錯 )
現在期待的就是中間六天的假期, 也期待新的工作模式

* 近來心情真不佳, 連累您了. 對不起

Offer

心應該定了下來
但不知為什麼心情反而有點怪, 有點忐忑


我想回家.

Art centre - Bachelor of Arts in Applied and Media Arts (P/T)

Degree awarded by t he School of Professional Education and Executive Development, The Hong Kong Polytechnic University.

Part-time: 3 Years
Tuition FeeHK$2,000 per credit for 2006/07 academic year, 45 credits in total.

HKD2000 * 45 = HKD90000 ,
The cirriculum attract me....but

很貴啊, 到外地讀也不用這麼的貴

autumn is coming

2 more pounds to go.....yeah...

hey gals, just boost up ur diet plan, autumn is coming ( u will have no intention when its turnin' cold =p)

luv not equal needs

我就是一個鑽牛角尖的人
你說我的話有點歪理，但是我怎樣都不明白

當心情低落的時候
我想的所有東西也是負面的

正如你所說的,安慰到其他人,但偏偏安慰不到自己, 唉...
又哭了，這一個愛哭鬼


多謝你, 我的little positive thinker

愛笑的眼睛

喜歡我的眼睛，說我愛笑，它也愛笑

so angry

my mom and my aunt from england went to travel to their motherland, so my home juz got few ppl : My dad, my bro jackal and my sai sai
i hang out with my frds past few days, when i back home tonight, what a meeeeessssss...

When i just step into my home, my dog scream miserably and then i saw the dump on the floor..OMG.....saisai seems to tell me

" sha, u are not the good master, u ignore me and i am so sad, it is ur PUNISHMENT "

u know, i m not keen on tidy up the things ( i m not a good housewife indeed) ...but i just squeezing my nose and trying to put "it" into the rubbish bag..
after that, i just feed him dogfood, and i realize that -

NO ONE feed him for past 2 NIGHTS ....ding...

I feed him as soon as i can, he seems so hungry and still licking his plate even nothing inside...i feel sad
I feel guilty, i m not a good master...wuwu....

after that, i need to wash all dirty dishes inside the sink: 3pots, 10plates, 5bowls...etc....those mess are created my dad, not me.....
and later, i put all the dirty clothes into the washing machine, and wait it till drying up and hang it up at the balcony

meanwhile, i realize that :
those clean clothes still accumulating on the sofa. and i TOLD my dad (on mon) that he need tidy it up and put it into the drawers..

it is easy task, huh? why he still do nothing when he is home ....
i can't imagine the suitation if i didnt home tonight.......

ding.....

photoBlog - Craig and Sai

hey, juz browse my sister's album

found this pic

why my saisai can be so nice with craig, but not me?

i m so jealous

Boat trip @02Sept

是時候寫寫02/09的遊船河

今次大約有十來人, 不過我沒有主動認識其他人, 因為他們好像是悶悶的 (opps, excuse me~)
相熟的只有: *Sze *Sze's sis *Kenny *Kirk *Leon *Windy

中午時開始, 陽光很猛....
在船上吃午餐( 燒大蝦實在太好), 飲飲白酒, 感覺很Luxury, 很relax
大家說說笑, hae著晒太陽, 玩撲克牌(又是那可惡的接龍)
玩Wakebroad,(上水數秒後不知所措大叫一聲就倒下了)很累,死死地要教練拉我上來...


回程時暈船浪..唉呀, 不得不承認身子弱...(整船上只得我有這情況, poor me)

不過遊船河感覺實在太好了 (thx Sze~~)

晚餐到了王家沙吃飯, 喜愛那松子燻魚, 酸酸甜甜, i luv it.. ^^
最後到了他家中與aunt和uncle玩poker (aiya, that Big 2 King ar...令我也輸了.....)

*在身邊, 很高興.

photoblog - home

家, 星期二淩晨一時 , 月圓, 睡不著

iTune播放著陶喆的新專輯

歌詞實在太甜蜜了, 發覺我的床真有點大

想起被抱著睡的感覺

Photoblog- Gloria & Craig

With Gloria & Craig @ Karaoke, Kwun Tong
they are so funny

dinner with *Po @TST

dinner with *保 @ 魚一丁, TST

為什麼他的樣子十年如一日的呢?而且他沒有中年發福, 反而愈來愈瘦說話比以前成熟不少(堂堂大公司的Sales Manager)..

中三之後用IM溝通

六年前他invite我到他於Uni時organize的一個X'mas Ball (印象中不太好玩)

四年前我到因為一個drama show到城大找他吃飯

三年前通過數個電話, 因他好友對他說在APA的mentor Gary 家中之X'mas Party中認出我

一二年前常常於銅鑼灣那些shopping mall 遇到

數月前於game center再遇到, 再相約吃晚飯 (sorry i ditch you all the time...)

這晚餐很高興, 給了我不少生活上以及工作上的意見, 謝!
十年, 過得真快...

幸好他也說我的樣子也沒有什麼改變....你知嗎..女生蠻介意的..嘻

Lolo的來信

今天中午時份Receptionist給我一個淺棕色的信,還以為是供應商給我的Invoice

淺棕色信封用手寫公司地址,而且是用毛筆(或科學毛筆)寫的
再細心看看,用中國郵票,印子印看'北京站'

立即就想是賀lolo從北京寄來的,嘩,開心死了!~~
內裡是她的板畫*2008年奧運熊貓妹妹

很開心啊,我會珍藏的了,這可會國寶級大師賀小姐成名前的真跡呢..嘻

p.s.Lolo:努力學習,享受北京/內蒙之旅,拍多點相片,不用太想我了=P (另外我媽媽常向我提起你,叫你小心一點呀)

Setting gals meeting @TST

setting gals meeting 又欠了兩人
最後只有*Jan*Eva和我三人

行街買衣服,左試右試
試試她剛剛試完的; 鞋子不襯試的衣服,身旁的脫下他那高跟鞋給另一位穿上來襯襯

吃飯時不用怕因衣領太低而走光
談天話題什麼也有,一談就談到食肆打牂,嘻

實在太喜歡了.I luv you gals,xxxx

p.s.原來setting房之事宜對你們也不是很驚嚇,很利害啊=P

25/8 - 27/8 diary

25.8.06 Fri Rain *leehom rocks!!

sickleave, so i sleep till noon. so happy. Fel.sung phoned me and we had a nice chat, glad that her bf can get back to her. she said she need my help later but she still not say anything about that. Dear diary: pls remind me to ask her after her Japan trip, 1 wk later

with *Kenny * Rebecca * Leon *Windy to watch this concert.
i brought ESO 350D to the Leehom Concert. however, the lens is not really suitable for the concert, so i cant take the close-up for Leehom the handsome guy.? The concert is awesome, he got a really great face, a nice voice, with a perfect body shape. when i watch his concert , i just question why there s a perfect creature on earth.
Kenny said all guys should jealous him since all gals in the venue seems gonna crazy (even her bf are sitting by their side, keep silent) , and he also said he is the guy can be 女子十二樂坊one ppl version. since he can play lots of musical intrument : Guitar, Piano, Violin, Drum, erhu......And he can sing, can compose, can dance, rap, can direct some movie thing.....oh.... what a talented handsome guy.....

i can't stop saying he is a perfect guy even my bf was by my side. Windy and I both said if the dream guy only got 3/5 of Handsome as Leehom Face and Body and familiar with only 1 musical intrument is enough for us already....( hope my bf can skipped this paragraph ...he can't see tat, he can't see tat , malimalihom)

the pity thing is we didnt know his song so well, and his rap is too fast, i cant catch up even i m watching the lyric on that screen.
after that, we went to dessert and having a tasty "cheung-fun" at Jordon....it s hard to imagine that the filling of the cheung-fan is roasted duck and grilled pork....yummy....

26.08.06 Sat. Sunny * Lantau Island trip..
god help us
the weather is not so well on thur and fri. , but when i awake at nine on sat. morning, the sunshine overlay...so the plan still going on.
the trip is orginized by bf's football member in his company. their activities is playing beach football, beach volleyball, bay-watch
But windy and I just ignore them , and we juz go far from them and having a sunbath. The weather is super fine, we just lying on the beach and chatted ( hey, windy, why we can chat all the time ? we chatted a lot thru phone, msn, office email, face-to-face already...hehhee). We both got little tanned. Thats really cool .

And we had found a superb restaurant/bar near the beach .. we got a really nice afternoon tea : a seedloaf with Cucumber Yorgurt dip , and a glass of Lime Squash. we enjoy that soooo much. it s worth to visit tat place again ....a really nice place.
I admit Windy's word - we both are easily satisfied with our food...juz a slice of bread is okay already, hehe.

after the sunbath, we juz back to Bf's colleague 's house ( it s nice indeed) and dinner and play ...those orange flavor brandy (44% alc, omg..luckily i juz got 2 small glass..but leon..oh..poor him)...that twister (u know, that game really twist my arms n legs together, n feel tired after the game..oh, its a sign of gettin old, sigh..).....we had lots of fun indeed
we played till 1130pm and leave. a really relaxing weekend, made me remembers the old days, a gangs of youngsters booked a house in outlying island and stayed 2days1night, bbq, mahjong throughout the night.

and thx u my bf that i knew he take care of me all the time. i know he afraid me getting bored. but dun worry, i can enjoy myself. but i really luv tat, adored by him.

27.08.06 sun sunny *bball match
being his bball fans.
unluckily we had spend almost half hour to find the venue for practice. and we just walk upstair n downslope, it made me sweat and the sad thing is the match was cancelled by organizer's fault.

but although the hot and humid weather made me sweat, i didnt have a proper dinner, but i really enjoyed tat so much [i think he can saw me keep smilin all the time.]

i can yelling at him 'hey, mr.cheung, do ur push-up ar, don't be lazy...'
its sooo funny ..hehe

......to be continue.......

*finish the book the joke already. a harsh book for me...

*sickleave today, coz i dun want to get bored inside the bloody office, but i still got 3 more weeks to go....sigh~ i m still suffering ....

*thank you muel muel for ur canon 350d, i will help you to take some great shoots for leehom tonight but you know what, it s so horrible when i walk downstair which got 90degrees steep , with my 2inch height high heel in the rain during midnight ..sigh.......

(the photo taken aboved by your 350d , hehehe)

diet plan

self-invented diet Plan mon-fri ( practice this plan for 1.5 weeks already)

Breakfast - Fruit (peach / cherry mainly ) + half slice of plain bread + a cup of low-fat Coffee
Lunch - plain mai fan + lots of vegetable
Dinner - Soup + Vegetable + Fish
Dessert - Fruit or Plain Crackers

+ Dr. Chan 's "Loss Weight Smelly Herbal Tea"

i dun feel hungry ...that s good
*But unluckily, i ate too much during Sat....so i will try eat nothing/less on Sun.
And the plan spoiled if I hang out with friend to lunch / dinner

Result - loss 3-4 pounds in these 1.5 weeks ....the progress is low
Target - loss 5 more pounds

*TRY HARD*

brand new day

今天晚上寪好了Resume, 收拾好了工作桌.

我的新一天,很是期待

(但突然間發現自己買Playmobil,扭蛋越來越多,真不知怎收藏=( )

sis leaves H.K

一個月眨眼又過,妹妹回英國了
但昨晚心情又沒有什麼特別,可能是因為科技太發達,有webcam,有online photo album.

雖然香港與英國之距離很遠,但感覺又不是太遠
不過總有點不捨得,始終一家人齊齊整整的時間不多

我相信下次是半年後的事了

move on

今早九時十分,終於遞了
心情好了不少
今早突然間發現天藍得多,美得多
解脫了.

frankly speaking

想一想,發現他和我自己也常常站在自已的立場來看(這就是獅子座的典型性格),我不斷在想"我為了你做了什麼,你竟然這樣做?"

後來發現對方為我做的事情-
由一開始他想做的行為,到他收到他的袋子之後的反應

我知道他是緊張我
對不起我令他有誤會(我不斷在想當時他的反應,其實蠻戲劇化,蠻窩心,而且蠻man的,縱使他打電話給我時的態度真是很可惡呀)
對不起我對他說他不treasure我,他一定很傷心了
對不起,我感受到他當時收到袋子時的一刻一定是很難受的了

但他也要為他所寫的負責,他也令我誤會了,而且我還想過一些嚴重的決定,這是我第一次有這八個月來有這念頭
希望他明白我的想法 (重申一次,如他真有這想法,我以後不管了)

哭了三天,連續兩天戴者帽子上班,同事們問我是不是想轉hip hop look..sigh

hmm…開心返了,嘻嘻
昨晚八時由大陸回到香港,也到了側魚涌看他打球…

很喜歡做他球賽的觀眾,原因是我可以不用說話,遠遠的看著,他入球時可以歡呼,射罰球會為他緊張,最正的是當他一air時可以笑他而不會被打. (不過最可惡的他打完後大汗淋漓之後抱我…)

chaos

所有東西一下子襲過來，很吃不消

近日心情己是到了極度差的狀態( 由哭到激動到生氣於這數天同時發生)
星期一時坐在巴士上流淚,
星期二實在太忙, 沒有心情想...
今天又因發生了一些事情令我再重想接受了這個offer時的後遺症

那種朝令夕改，那種任人魚肉的感覺令我真是很怕
一下班,立即打電話找朋友訴苦

回到家，沒有胃口
爸再三追問下我才說了出來(我心想，無論怎樣你都不明白有多麼難受）
他聽了後，竟然對我說 : 你那麼不開心的話就辭退吧了,經濟上都可以的
媽媽一邊聽一邊哭一邊駡，說" 那xxx, 真後悔新年時送她蘿蔔糕 " "不開心就走了,他會玩死你的，明天辭退，去完旅行後再找工作吧 "

"你冇鬼用，比人蝦上心口一粒聲都唔出，真係...“ 她仍邊哭邊說
看見她哭，心蠻痛的

“比人蝦" 這幾個字由星期六晚到今天星期三不斷重複在耳邊, 由同事朋友男友到家人也都這樣說我

現在這一刻己經有了結果
我想就是這樣做吧
不過，請你和我一起看守著我的決定 ，不然我又將它弄失了

我就是這樣的沒用鬼

workin'

workworkwork

thank you my love

賀馬小蟲牛一
原來馬小蟲是我
謝謝
想我嗎, 嘻嘻

你想的是你要得到即時的宣洩, 而我想的是你的後果
我所顧及的事之程度是你不能想像得的. 我是清醒的
我只是不捨得你因為我而受到傷害
但你怎不能因為生氣之後什麼也不理, 你的轉身會令你身邊的人感到難受
如果雙方各自生氣的話, 沒有人主動一點的話, 我相信很快就不行了有沒有想過身邊的人也會很生氣, 但你感受到他也盡量令你平靜下來嗎?

而昨晚之事真是對不起, 我的做法令你有點誤會, 事實我這樣做沒有這什麼意味或暗示. 我的出席只想做出我之前給你的承諾, 而且我希望給你知道我仍在你的身邊支持著, 但無奈的是我實在太難過, 我相信我不可能和你有直接的對話, 所以我只可以只樣做
車程是遙遠的, 袋子蠻重的, 我為了的是短短的3分鐘, 為的是想你知道我的支持但無奈的是你的態度也令我更加生氣和難過, 我相信如你真的找到我在那兒, 你的態度我也會令我生氣
你寫的話令我真難過, 對不起那sms.

對不起,仍然控制不住我的眼淚, 只想平靜下來
對不起.

分不清是生氣還是難過了

>_<

i didn’t do anything wrong, i didnt get drunk and do something silly to anger u, but why did you blame on me ?

i still by your side if you need me, all people can be the witnesses

i didn’t do something to trigger or to provoke this, i m just in the passive way

i do nothing (juz cried in front of my sis and craig when we off the taxi, i m useless)

if you don’t believe that, just leave it.

happy birthday

hello,
i knew u have read my blog

i juz wanna say " happy birthday"
wish you all the best

little magic

White chocolate bar+a toy= little surprise

May those tiny stuff can sparkle your life up,hehe

dinner with *twinzen

dinner with twinzen at central..
吃過晚飯, 之後再到LKF吃花生飲啤酒 (我只是飲凍檸檬茶,唉,怕肥呢)

談了很多話,說說他和他的Finland Angel的相遇故事(都很浪漫的)

說起他在芬蘭時曾試過飲醉時作畫,他說那感覺實在太棒.
我也想試試看,不過相信架起畫框後已經醉倒床上不省人事(翌曰起床後會發現周地都是顏料,一塌糊塗,嘻)

希望他十一月成功,嘻

photoblog- 螢火蟲

站在螢火蟲堆中，閃著

softhard - long time no see concert

與*Kenny*Leon*Windy渡過了節目豐富的星期六

- 來一個Lunch K,很enjoy(雖然前一天也與妹妹和她男友Craig唱到凌晨2時)
- 到了寧記吃火鍋,食物一般啦...都是譚魚頭好吃點 ( 不過真是很肥)
- 去看尾場的軟硬LongTimeNoSee的Show.

可能是期望太高,又或者是不太切合年齡(我相信老多三四年會好得多), 所以真是覺得不怎好看. 而且還覺得有點悶...
反而當林海峰說話時, 我想起很喜歡的兩套戲, 因為該兩戲之vocal也是Jan負責的 - 戀愛起義 和 天下無雙.. 一邊聽著他說話一邊在想是時候重看這兩戲

看過後到了吃糖水( Chocolate Sundae with Banana) , 真好味....我還在回想那cornflake...

p.s. 這演唱會團真不錯....hoho, 很期待 Leehom八月尾的concert....
p.s.II. thanks for bring me home, that s sweet ! really sweet indeed..

*

這個世界隨時都要崩塌 我沒有其他的願望
假如明天將消失了 趁現在我愛著
只想記得被你抱著溫熱的感受

touched..

Enclosed pls find the Love Letter

Dear my dearest,

Back from Bangkok/Pattaya 5-days trip,
those sweet memoriesss still running inside my head.

you awake in sudden during the mid-night and searched for me on the bed,grabbed me close to your body, hugged me tightly and then you just fell aslept again....it is soooooo sweet..

i feel like being adored even i m sleeping

i like being hugged in the water, had fun on the beach, I remember you just put me On your back, and walk to the way I want to and thrown me into the water. your warmth transmit to my body.

My heart was warmed

when you told me " hey, zip up your bag ar!" I feel so happy, u know, i m the big-head-shrimp ma...

we had a good time at the Pattaya Hotel, that balcony is such a lovely place, we had Lay's Chips and chatted till 300am. i still remember you fell asleep on that bench in the morning..hhehe.
When we went out and planned to have a drink in Pattaya the sin city at night. you grab my hand tightly, I dont feel fear anymore lu.

when we went Siam Night Bazaar by ourselves, we tried to bargain all the time, and we counted every single bucks we had. I like that feeling (but i dun know why , hehe)

That song you gave before was played on the TV in sudden when we played poker with Aunt and Uncle. I still remember that you looked at me and smile shyly. Sssoooo sweet....

you know what, it is a such a lovely trip and i love it most. Compare with Beijing trip, i think this is far far better. ( although Beijing trip is superb already) , it is sweeter, happier, and we start to have common eating habit, sleeping habit....And we still not have any argument during the trip, Perfect Match ?! hehe

But the sad thing is , i m getting used to sleep by your side ....i feel sad when i m lying on my bed alone during the midnight. Hon, be faithful as i told you before. Everything can be possible. ( You see, your sun-and-beach dream had come true already....hehhe)

Our sweet sweet period prolong.......

ai ya, ho miss you tim, dim ho ar?
i miss the smile and kisses when you finished the Bday present Treasure Hunt.....
Ngor Oi Nei.

with kixxxxxxx
Sha

*

又差起來
sigh..
百思不得其解*

早上收到可惡的icq messagezzz+我就是不喜歡要擦什麼人的鞋+不知道的話請不要胡亂地猜+所有朋友的不幸事宜:figfig*fel.sung*ava*zoe*+疲憊+想也想不出來+.....


所有的一下子襲過來, 吃不消了
吃了,飽了,滯了, 快要吐了

禮物

昨天, 2006年 7月24日, 香港
天氣有點反常, 早上天文台錄得最高溫度37.5度, 下午急降至10度,
突然間聽到傳來「劈里啪啦」聲, 天空散落一粒粒的水晶
天空閃下閃下, 接近二千次. 很美

我相信, 是上天給我的禮物
謝謝!

the wishing well

Little Sha de le macaroni just walk through a greenie forest with her bare feet.
there is plenty of colorful mushrooms and giant flowers.
Several dears are running and the birds are singing

She start a glimpse and found a wishing well near the lake.

she just find a coin from her pocket and just thrown it into the well.
she start to make wishesssss for herself :

wakeupontimeehaveabetterjobhavemoreleisuretimehavemoremoneyhaveahealt
hylifethepplwhoilovewillbegoodallthetimedontbedepressedallthetimealldreamsc
ometrueallthebestimsogreedyhahhahaand


then she just grab one more coin to make a wish,
for us. ^_^

life is juz like on the rollar-coaster

這兩三天就像活在過山車上,時高時低。
由澳門回來後,心一直沒有平靜下來

由前幾天早上九時Aunt的Sms.令我重新想七月尾的泰國旅行. 由本來我沒想過真係去請假的,

後來, 我知道自己只可以請2天假, 但因為沒有機位令我強迫自己再向高層申請多一天的假

竟然, 成功了 (我公司出名難請假的).

後來, 發現還了Non-mean Loan 後沒有Budget的時候, Aunt 還請我旅行 (那些推不掉的理由令我接受她的好意很感謝她, 我也希望就如她所說新年的時候請她去旅行一趟 ), 蠻期待與他慶祝生日.

現在我參加泰國5天的Spa團

之後

我夢寐以求的工作模式突然間出現了 ( 最高興的當然她所講的Home Office和 MacBook Pro了) , 雖然還未十足十地confirm, 但我真是蠻期待

已本來想離開心態又突然因為新的工作而令我仍然要留在這裡

而留在這裡令我緊張的就是9月的LyonTrip

也是因為新的工作令我再萌生搬出去住的念頭

也是因為要留在工作及為了將來令到Ryan的英國之旅要擱下來

所有東西就在這幾天內發生

這旅行是我一件近數月內第一件夢境成真的事

我希望第二件第三件的DreamComeTrue會接踵而來. I pray...

macau trip -jul 14th-16th

與RyanKirkLeonLiliunWindy 到了澳門快樂遊玩:

住 - 不錯的Executive hotelroom ( thx ryan)

食 - 等我想一想...有蟹粥, 大利的豬扒, 安得魯的葡tart, 非常潤的蓮子白果杏仁糊, 金沙蝦(yummy..), 義順蓮子燉奶........
玩 - 高卡車( 那摩打令車子震盪起來, 風馳電掣, 感覺實在太棒), bowling, snooker, 舊式足球機 (非常好玩,而且還很retro), 金沙睹場睹兩手(輸了一百大元), Disco ( 可恨的是凌晨3時才"正式"開始)


整個trip真是很不錯, 行程排得密密的. 而且大家的心情真是很不錯.
天氣也不錯, 沒有下很大的雨( 幸運地我們到了澳門而不是呆在香港, 如不是那黑雨就會spoil我的週末...) , 也不太熱( 否則男友被熱融了,嘻嘻)
開始發現與大家旅行多次後, 大家的旅行習慣已經有點相似 (玩的東西有點相似, 大家都有點HaeHae的去玩), 而且大家開始習慣我隨時隨地不斷拍照, 真的很好.
我相信我們大家可以再到遠一點的地方旅行了.. 很期待

p.s.不過, 我都覺得唔夠喉...快d plan下下一個trip 了

Hey, Ladies and Gentleman, juz have a look~ ur lovely photos on my album now.