27&28&29

*like Mon. morning quite much coz i really get some spare time to do my own stuff...lol...

27-04-07 (Fri) / Bf's Family nite.
Dinner with bf family at his home ( egg white under those crab, yumyum) . And i get the pie in citysuper for the nite's dessert too (but the taste is juz NORMAL )
My mood was very nice too. dinner, and watching TV with bf... half of Chicago & half of 父子.
Loved bein hugged by the big body till sleep... it is warm and sweet...dun leave me away my biggie tummy......

i knew he was happy, juz thru his smile.. and i luv his smile....

28-04-07 (Sat) / Luv it.
Drink tea at Jumbo Boat (he planned it ) .... wahhaha....tats my second time to been there in my life..we need to reach there by boat . its kinda hilarious. And we planned to pretend as the tourist too. i juz holding the camera wheras bf juz holding the tennis racket ..=.=
Ate lots and chat alot., all dim sum are quite tasteful and we almost FINISH them alll ,wahaha... thank you for ordering Fung-Jao-Pai-Qui-Faan , i like the rice as well as that bowl too...

After that, we join Ivan and his frd to play tennis, i didnt prepare the sportwear so i juz sitting outside the court and play my Tennis too ( Tat's virtual tennis, keke).But i really wanna join tennis next time, its seems fun... After that, we had the Bowling, TOP 3 in 7 ppl...not bad not bad.. wakakkaka

And after tat, Join windy those pal at CWB. have a casual dinner. Meanwhile my sis juz phone me .. 20th Jul . Alrite, i m really looking forward to ur coming back ~ Let's sing ( u should start listening those current Canton Pop now ) and i really wanna have a very nice chat in some place nice.. come on....
(Hey, will you go Brighton before u back ? juz let me know..........)

Have Peanuts & Brooklyn beer / Forris chocolate with bf ( Leon had refused to join Kenny those pal's drinking party ). We watched the Football match in the bar. and we chatted too. start to know his true thinking about his trip & sth related to his basketball game - I can sure he is Leo type.
His thoughts juz like mine, esp. he have a desire to excel. he need accomplishment, needs appreciation from others and he dun like gigantic pressure...mm.. i can sure he can do a great job in the trip coz he must not want to make others down.....

Durin the time. sth funny / bad happen.
my hair was stainned by those cream (from our dessert) and those gunk are on bf's shirt too. tats my long hair fault, but my mood cant be even better. still Laughing and making jokes...lol.
we leave the place... glad that u had asked me.

u knew me and i knew u.

29-04-07 ( Sun) / TW Mahjong day. & FOB Playoff.
wake up early and had a very nice and intense chat with my dad. After that, i came to bf's place and waiting for the mj game.but i luv the moment before the game.. the time should be like : Aunt using his Laptop, i m playing psp , bf watching TV... both 3 of us do different things but we still chatting for sth...hehe
Aunt Nancy reached and we start to play the MJ. Aunt Nancy is really really funny, she still can win the game even she didnt stop talking...mmm... i loss the game again, and i think it s the worst performace for me.. coz i can juz win 2 games and lost almost 300 bucks in only almost 3 hours...
BF juz the biggest winner ......80 Fans.. (but aunt didnt get my money in final even i said tats is tuition fee lei...)

Rushed to Venue and be the big fans again. But the funniest thing when we discuss how to reach the place: we got several plans and we discussed it one by one. although tat seems a normal daily stuff, it s important to me ,it made me know his way of thinking.
I do believe his thoughts is not run tat fast and smooth, but he thoughts much detailed. juz like he will think we can go there by Van but his concern the time of waiting. and no. of ppl of wating. the distance between the stop and the venue.It evoke up my thoughts too and i can provide more opinion based on his thoughts....We can made the best choice...And i m really glad is we start to think onto the same matter at the same moment.

The game. not that bad, though they still loss the game, it's not the humuliating score. ..And we should remind that scoring is not the only greatest Achievement. Ur defend Rocks really.
dinner. I luv tat... i got him that shrimp. He got my dishes....lovely couple, don't we? ^.^

After that, Maurice bring me home and we chat again. He gave me more infomation about Basketball... It's time for the Big fan do, i will concentrate on his next game, no chatting and no psp....hehe

**
I m very happy for these days. Its seems u are nothing short of my everything.
And u made me i m still in the heaven.

And i m happy for myself too. i m getting mature.I had expcect my mood will getting lower and lower when the time is coming, But i didn't.(till now) .
My O2 had set the clock of Mumbai, set his departure date on my calender. Searching the Roaming plan. Try to install Mapking to prevade lost on my own...

Maybe 2 months reli upset me, but 3 weeks ...lol.. juz goes by quickly
mm.. i m determined tat i dun want a very fabulous 3-weeks times.
i dun want to worry about me. and i wanna get a fabulous time with him. not with others....
i will waiting
but juz for u only

04-26-07/ Dinner * Mesolo.

與Lolo終於在Outback吃過那chocolate tower..談了四小時

*也知道過去他是一個蠻影響我的人
*是的, 她很少會這樣, 我很掛念她的聲音和她的追魂call...
*感謝你, 你是知道我的脾性, 太隨心了,而且還有點自我中心呢.... 感謝你從沒有因爽約而生氣
*你將會是混在兄弟團中的間諜吧,wahaha
*多謝你給我那些很inspirating的資料: 0-2 yrs old...
*我會努力於那三星期完成.雖然有點緊迫, 而我也開始在看有關的書, 始終有三年沒有拿起畫筆

很高興, 期待 26th-27th May 的活動

* After Life Experiences : thanks for your reccomondation , i will get this book first ^^


p.s.在晚飯時收到一個電話 .^3^
p.s.不斷想起某人護照上的照片, 唔知可唔可以比一張我呀? 嘻嘻

sms sent (part ii)

"...you should know you made me keep smiling and even can't say anything else when i pick up ur call and listen the song. thx honhon, it is sooooo sweet. and you know what, i wanna jump onto u and give u hundreds of kisses at that moment too...hehe...ngor oi nei =) you made me feel like i m in heaven....nitenite " sent@1:10am

sms sent.

"只怕我自己會愛上你,不敢讓自己靠的太近....i m singing now..haha.. enjoy ur Halin's concert tonight " sent @5:40pm

gig ha him sin..kekeke

"愛上你是我情非得已 , this is not the lyric, it s wat i think. hehe =)" sent @5:55pm

Lum die bf.. keke.
glad that you like it ..^3^

everythin' clear

my mood is pretty cool ( although my stomach is weird today )

wind bleeze and sunshine sparkle me up even my sleep is rather bad last night ( i plan i will power-on my air con. every nights ). and i feel happy when i saw those Swan and Ducks on the lake when i on the way to office too.

i like the feeling now.... a very clear status.
3 weeks, it's time to plan my schedule , but still in the progress..^^

dun worry, i m a good gf. wahaha.
And it s a time to do sth for him too.......

* will make some promises before he leave.
19 days to go...i dun afraid to count down the days anymore

maybe its the best gift for our 1.5yr anniversary .
i know i will be good, he will be good.
to consolidate our relationship.

p.s. look at the MV i post , Like a boy by Ciara. Her movement soooo nice. ^^

17th month anniversary

mood swing.

mood juz up & down like the rollar coaster:

Fri
BAD MOOOOOOOOOD even numerous phonecalls.

Sat
10:00am- Home. in very bad mood after wake up.
11:00am- feel better alot after chat with bf
04:00pm- lunch at Wanchai & Hang around those Outlet shop. feel so good and i still can making jokes
08:00pm- awesome, coz it s the SHOPPING TIME... it cure all ..
00:00am- start movie Spider Lilies with pals. the only thing i m thinking of is " wat the feeling of being kissed by gal ?" Bf shocked ..wahaha
02:00am- drink at Cha Chen Teng, think nothing coz i m playing Virtual Tennis with bf.

Sun
11:00am- mood still fine coz Kenny paid the breakfast for us (as penalty) ..thx..
03:00pm- still very fine even his bball game and my NDS mario kart ranking SUCKS.
03:30pm- mood drop suddenly.
06:00pm- better alot but i still in low mood
08:00pm- getting better after chat with frds.
11:00pm - low mood again.

Mon
8:00am - feel so bad coz it pours and my thumb was being hurt by that bloody umbrella..it bleeds....
9:00am - feel better when i rec'd carol's email. i luv her~~~
5:00pm - getting better after chat with aunt.
5:30pm - rec'd windy's email. i know i m well-prepared already even i know there maybe got some changes

And now i m juz waiting for the final confirmation.

seperation

bf may need to go the business trip for 2 months in maximum.it's a v.good chance to him of coz.

2months is not a long period for me really. but i also believe it is not a v.short period of time.
mm.. i didnt tried any similar happen before. I really can't imagine how will my life be.. i believe i will be fine.
i think it is our longest seperate, uno, we didnt seperated for 1 month or even we didnt had any cold war before.
but as my frd said, all things cant be controlled anyway, juz think more positive & try to be more Long-sighted...

I trust him of coz. but i juz feel a bit upset. since i know i must miss him desperately and i know my mood swings more easily when he is not by my side....
But now, i m going to treat its the time to do sth i want but still not make it in final (becoz of time-consuming), like paintiing , meet up my old buddies , watching soap opera at home and joinned yoga class...etc.
meanwhile, i should do sth for my career as well.it s time to learn how to deal with Loniliness. i need to growth up. i know i need to be independent.

mm....maybe this short seperation can lead the great consolidation for our relationship.

p.s. but all uncertainty really piss me off , wish all things can be confirmed a.s.a.p.

14 days to go OR 21 days to go..
hey, i will not counting the days anymore, it will make me upset again.

樹懶

昨晚由於時間的關係+肚子也不餓 ,所以吃了兩片麵包作為晚餐.

00:30 看著Amodover的Bad Education VCD, 睡著
03:00 吃床, 感到很不舒服, 睡不著
03:05 二話不說在椅上拿起半塊麵包,依著枕頭咬著

咬了數口, 還拿著那塊麵包再睡著
其實, 我和那些樹懶是沒有分別

它們可以爬爬下樹睡著; 我可以咬住個飽訓著 XDDD

kate moss goes Topshop

juz browse the collection of Topshop designed by Kate moss.
The collection i have to say is it is wearable than M by Madonna of coz.

It is kinda Rock & Roll and simple cutting
but i do believe it only can be handle well by those skinny gal , juz like Kate.
umm....

http://www.katemosstopshop.com/

我懷念的.

聽著孫燕姿的新歌.
今早總一直懐念第一次的台北旅行

認識和他一起不足三星期的第一次旅行

想起在機場上我看著他的新髮型, 看著他的超大背嚢
想起那中華航空帶給我們驚嚇的旅程,捉著他的手
想起下著雨的北投
想起那超差的溫泉酒店, 它超大的窗, 坐在窗框上吸著窗外的冷空氣
想起四人的撲克牌以及凌晨四點計劃行程表
想起第一晚和他在床上睡著, 醒起來時發現在看著我
想起第一次聽到他的交響樂
想起中午十二時起床被人趕check-out的一刻
想起一起夾公仔, 但最後也夾不到一小個
想起在漁人碼頭玩著日本豉機
想起在西門町玩我們第一次的indoor kart. (只記得我撞去車呔的一刻)
想起於up-dup攤擋等了很久的超甜的珍珠奶茶
想起精力旺盛的collette
想起在等巴士回酒店時他在後面攬著我
想起在誠品, 我找我的小說, 他看他有關車的書
想起北投starbucks門外有幾隻在避雨的小狗, 也想起gingerbread latte
想起到那bar Kirk遺失了眼鏡, 他坐在舞池邊看著我們
想起bar後在7-11買的飽
想起那亳大大雞塊和鼎泰豐小籠飽
想起回來香港時收到aunt第一個電話
想起我們在機場拆箱, 取回各自買的鳳凰酥和蜂蜜蛋糕

那時總有點尷尬, 不想拍二人照
看著相簿
真的沒有正式的二人合照

http://community.webshots.com/user/taipeiwalkers
想起當時要另開一個相簿的原因


感謝你, 你令我現在的相簿充滿著你
決定 再到台北時, 要和他拍很多很多的照片

多得無法想像

^^

Mr.Bean's holiday.

dinner & movie Mr. Bean's Holiday with *windy*kenny*Kirk* Collette last night. ( u know, i had cancelled my doc. appointment becoz of collette's sms )

the dinner was highly recommended by collette - Grilled meat in Japanese style. yummmy but it is too oily

During the dinner, i start to realize the power of NDS. =p

tat Mario Bros reli impress me. it reli made me think to buy this again..

But i can link to play with my bf when i buy the PSP wor.....
( if i play my NDS, and he play his PSP. we are in 2 total different world..umm.. it is not fun reli )

Mr.Bean's that movie is not tat laughable much. But i do like the first few scenes like the Oyster & walk straight towards Lyon Station those two..he is such an old-fashioned stubborn Englishman reli

And i also like the Playback time that movie .. haha. tats is reli funny .. Nothing...nothing...nooooothing.... lol

p.s. look at the poster.. Disaster Has a Passport...it truly is..

umm. something happens during the dinner time.
we both stunned coz windy seldom do such things coz its reli not a big matter. Her temper is getting fierce and she was extremely tense.
i had concern abt this issue for several days...

I reli hope she can find the real her back. be an adorable girl, not a troublesome n bad temper gal

離開

昨晚與男友談論有關工作的事宜. 說真的, 我不太滿意自己現在的工作

這是一個渡假地點, 不是Maldive或Hawaii. 是phuket而已, (因為人工不怎麼高吧)
在這裡, 除了有時會有一些很趕的工作令我感到壓力外, 大多平均只需要用1/3的effort去完成.

我開始想離開了
想找忙多一點的工作
一來我怕我再呆在這裡會愈來愈懶, 二來我要多點錢 三來我要在還年輕時再努力一點...
我也能勝任很忙的工作

但前幾天看醫師時他對我的叮囑
不能再捱更抵夜去趕圖. 不能再晚晚凌晨三四點才睡
我心態上許可, 但生理上不許可
i dun wanna spoiled my health again, coz dont have much to spoil.

不過我總想我會做到9月.我還有五個月的假期呢.

let’s wait & see
可能...這裡會變成Hawaii也不一定呢 ~我才不捨得走 =p

p.s. thx for ur accompanion. we both need a better health.

14-04-07 (sat)
such a normal weekend . brunch at flying pans , central.
we talked much... i do know what he said and what he worried. but i think it is not serious.
i do believe.all things should good for both of us.

p.s. he made this to me during the meal.. thx hon~
face & body: baked potato
eyess: baked beans
mouth: tomato sauce from baked bean
hands & legs: Sliced Apple
hair: egg white

**
15-04-07 (sun)
such a relaxing sunday.
went to Wanchai and bought those stuff related to his PSP. and we realize Jill or Janice maybe was juz stand next to us.
Hotpot with Bf's family . i m definitely full..

i luv that " Zi Choke" Roll....yumyum...

p.s. when uncle said 'Tabby' after tat Cheung bb joke on the taxi. reli burst into laughter. Uncle look serious thru his face, but he is caring and humurous ^^

愛情轉移

把一個人的溫暖 轉移到另一個的胸膛
讓上次犯的錯反省出夢想
每個人都是這樣 享受過提心吊膽
才拒絕做愛情待罪的羔羊

回憶是抓不到的月光握緊就變黑暗
等虛假的背影消失於晴朗
陽光在身上流轉 等所有業障被原諒
愛情不停站 想開往地老天荒 需要多勇敢

你不要失望 蕩氣迴腸是為了 最美的平凡

2007-04-13 (fri) / Joe birthday party

昨晚與aunt看過醫生和吃了晚飯之後就join了joe的生日party
那party..umm..不過不失吧, 不過真是太crowded. 三十多人迫於只可容納十來人的房間

飲酒不多, 總覺得剛剛喝完中醫的苦茶再加johnnie是有點核突

windy和我站在厠所裡對著鏡子
'我總覺得我和你在這厠所談過天' 她對我說
當然呢, 那是第一次認識的地方 =.= 不過怎也想不到那時醉酒的她仍然記得這厠所

那地方也即是認識男友的第一個地方 ^^, 總想起他那件深藍色的薄sweater.

2:30am 離開.
'如果這個不是joe的生日派對, 而是一個普通的drinking party, 你仍會來吧?'
他搖頭, 說 '我想抱著你看電視'
我也是呢 ^3^

***
友知道友人新男友之行為. 他說'唔洗呀?!' 我回應 '這是愛'
他靜了數秒後說 '我也想這樣做.......你不會不開心吧?'

剛剛在一起時真是會不高興的
有時也想有人在身邊抱著睡, 起床時有人給我一個抱抱
由不高興到習慣, 大概都經歷一年, 直到真正知道健康事宜
因為健康是所有的大前提
不過心裡總有點不快. 他也知道我的不高興
一大早由南區到我家, 很感動

近這數月, 我到他家stay overnight的時間多了
心情是很好. 好的不只是我和他之間; 而是我和他家人之間的關係

現在我總認為現在這樣比其他所有情況好
我喜歡不斷 improving的感覺
我喜歡他的家人真正喜歡我留在他們的家, 而不是男友硬著他們要接受我的留宿

我喜歡這樣

default answer/feedback

所有的人都有一些default的答案
當你做一點事情時,你的腦子就會有一個default的回應

就例如幼稚園時, 默書時取得高分就一定需要得到媽媽的糖果和老師的白兔仔印
自己心裡就一直有既定的回覆.
沒有糖果 /白兔仔印, 就開始發脾氣了

因為總覺得 取得高分也是多餘, 媽媽老師怎樣也不欣賞我所做的


我就是那幼稚園學生吧
我就要那些膚淺的讚賞

Keep saying should lost contact,
keep saying to move on.
but i dun think u are

Tats ur camera, not mine anymore.
if u think the past means nothing to u.
just throw it to the trash bin
i dun care tat.

delete me then.
so u dun need my reminder anymore
thanks

9days8night easter holiday

8days Easter Holiday had gone tat quickly. The schedule is pretty packed coz i had 2 trips in this holiday. Sorry to ditch some of my friends.

*Phuket trip 1st - 5th apr. (with kenny , windy n bf)

Phuket in fact, it is not a shopping paradise like Bangkok. But it got some beautiful beaches. all tourists juz came to that place and enjoy beach&sunshine. The mood is pretty cool~

swimming, sunbathing, volleyball ( but my hands hurts ), spa on the beach ( sigh....my skin was being hurted by those Hot sand ), lots of gay bars ( kenny n bf are too attractive..keke), coconut, yumyum banana+egg pancake, thai massage, diving , seafood, fish feeding , watch ESPN all the time. massaging for my bf, johnnie accompany us all the time, poker game....

the most funniest thing is diving and feeding those fishes, it is the first time in life.. The water is very clear, we can see the seabed easily. fishes juz crushing on my goggle. .... feel peace when i was diving ....
but tat is the horrible day to me also, coz my skin was hurt seriously by the sun in previous days...fee reli bad when i still need to float on the sea without any sunscreen protection. ( uno, my skin is peeling off now.. ho hang ho hang.)

And the most craziest thing in this trip should be Kenny's fav. JOHNNIE of coz ( w/ lots of FATAL snacks... ) we drank inside the hotel for several nights. but we both dun get drunk... juz play the poker game and snacks..Bf slept earliest after a little alcohol ( everyone should know abt that =p ) after tat, that is the horrible time to Kenny and windy.....his snoozing.. wahaha....u no i m immune to it of coz ^^

It is the first time to travel with them in the same time. i think 4 of us are kinda match =p ( except bf can't try those super spicy food and dong yum gong. )kenny is the joker all the time, can make lots of fun to us or even to our tour-mates. they laughed all the time when Kenny start singing his Janice..keke

SUNBURNT RANKING:

1. Kenny ( he look mature and ying lu )

2. Leon ( he look musular and slimmer ...)

3. Sha ( luckily, her face still not too dark..but arms n legs were being tanned.wakaka.)

4. Windy ( tat pretty still have the white skin )

luv tat trip reali. .... nexttrip nexttrip ..kekke

*Macau trip
after phuket trip. i had stayed at my home for 1 nite with my swelling eyes ( u can know wat i had done during tat nite in the previous paragraph )
i will not TRY not to be BIG HEAD SHRIMP from now on...

on the next day, went to bf's home, dinner and play mahjong..( keep improving ..keke)
and we went to Macau on the next day. went there in sudden so we didnt plan anything for them..

stayed in a very nice hotel , playing poker game, casino those ball ball look look machine...my lucky bf win in a hour ( see? i m his lucky guidian lei ). watching TV together, sleep together. being the massage technician... keke

on the next day, we juz went to have the massage. the price is pretty expensive and aunt had paid for us... i feel not comfortable of coz and wanna pay for the dinner but she refuse that..

thx aunt, but i need to treat her a dinner anyway.

we chatted during Sauna again. i reli wish i can assist bf's career as Eric said.

when aunt told me about Eric said . i m stunned. his reading is correct coz i m not pretty sure aunt's thoughts sometimes. and recognition from others is truly crucial to me.

all ppl in his family are happy & both aunt and uncle like me. tats wat i want

and his word is correct, coz i really like his family

dinner after the massage, and aunt asked me to stay one more night inside her house. i d lov to of coz. coz i luv being hugged by bf n enjoy his symphony ..keke.
wake up at 7 , breakfast with him and windy and I joinned aunt at 9.

we went to see ACUPUNTURNIST ~~~1st time in my life again

tats is the first time to go to a place with bf's mom. we went there and tried the acuputure .the doctor said 'Wah, ur health is bad ar , ur blood ciruculation is quite worse....' but luckily , he said i will be fine after SEVERAL VISITS..

after tat , i tried those NEEDLES in final.....feel numb when those needles are being inserted on my knee, and those smoke are smelly.....

after tat, Lunch and go shopping after the acuputure. we talked lots. when aunt asked me when u think about those lifelong stuff ?? aiya, i feel blushed and my face turining hot...

and i had told sth about my family... i m glad she seems enjoy this topic... we chat lots. and it reminds me abt that... sth bad sth good. but all should be memoriable to me.

i feel happy when i go shopping with aunt. it s a great day to me. feel very comfortble tat i cant fully explained. we reli can be good frds.

p.s. will save up some money for the Sept trip. hehe

these few days remind me abt the last easter holiday.

we got 4days3night HK trip last year .. and we had 9days8night Phuket+HK+Macau trip.

i m reli get used to his hug on the morning.. get used to his short hair, get used to his super dark skin, get used to his symphony, get used to his XXXL short as my pyjama, get used to his wooden face when he wake up. get used to hold his hand all the time..

get used to his everything

luv

介指

phuket回港。到機場時發現右手上的介指不見了
是linkage, 是promise
恨男友給我那介指時我在沉迷著那psp...
發現之後，立即通知領隊叫他幫我打電話到酒店查找
最後酒店方面說找不到

說著之後，眼淚就流過不停，傷心得不想再說話，帽子壓得無可再低，連windy說話時我也不能回應，只可以用點頭和搖頭作出回應
這是首三個重要的隨身物品。而對我而言它肯定最有義意的物品.

由phuket機場哭回到香港， 到旺角，到家
我常常遺失亂放東西，小至小時候筆袋上筆的數目永遠不斷減少。人家送給我的T&co.介指，上一次上海機場找不到身份證，就連今次上機前上班時發現自己沒有帶passport.....
我從不因為了任何遺失的東西而哭過，只會抱怨自己的不小心, 從來不在乎我的東西...
這是人生第一次
這小東西我就是這樣的著緊

在機上時，想起男友剛剛收到此禮物時叮囑我不能遺失，哭起來
拖手時，觸到男友左手的介指，哭起來
吃飯時，右手姆指如常玩著無名指的介指時，感覺不到它的存在時，很想它，哭起來
想起自己的無用，哭起來

哭著回家，打開行李箱
發現了。
大哭起來

我就是那麼笨，那麼無用，那麼的愛哭
不介意我因為了它的失跡令眼睛現在腫如雞蛋
只介意它不在身邊'
發現我很愛它

我也知道你也不愉快吧。你所謂的“你無事“也不能掩蓋你那不快
你的無言也是在責怪我吧
對不起